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Saturday, September 09, 2006
when everything goes okay. then it turns to shit.
1:55 am

it was so sudden. it hasnt hit me yet.
i dont want it to- crying really makes you tired. you just wanna sleep after.
i remember i always couldnt cry at the important things. it'd always be really really lame stupid small things. i think now. just thinking of things... the tears.. like wheni think of "paint the silence" it makes me want to cry almost. it reminds me of marissa and ryan [OC] and how it was sad. and how sad i was back then...
dont you hate days like those? well...this?

today wasnt all so bad. beside me taking apparently 45 min to shop for jewellry. now i'm poor. once again.but i got more bling rings.

wasted my night watching movies on teevee. needed to desensitize myself even more cos right now...yeah. but theyre showing that weird jap movie on sbs again~

took a late late shower. now just...out of it.? and listening to emo music isnt helping...

we were so different. i'm so not a girl that he'd like. its inevitable. i guess cory is right.. i probably was too attached to not want more. but why is it still so hard. hmm...no i guess its for the better.i dont feel like going anymore. but i guess it'll be alright in the end i hope. so stupid. so so so so stupid. it'll be okay...just not right now. i guess i'm more angry than anything. but at the same time i wanna laugh. cry. and forget about the whole thing.feeling helpless brings out the monster in you. i wanted something more...but at the same time i knew it wouldnt come? crazy fool. my ears are still ringing. if i'm quiet tell me...i need to put on my happy face. not for you. for me. i guess i'll be wearing more than one mask to MSU.

on a side note: jay chou's new album is out! woooo

ears are absorbing emo music at 2 in the morning:
cute is what we aim for- newport living/the curse of curves. RISQUE.
panic at the disco- but its better if we do.

depressing status.


wasting your time at 1:55 am

change of pace .

about me .

Name: exodus.state

Birthday: 30th.Nov.1988

Currently:HATE UNI

i'm liking ...

music!!
the net
shopping
getting money
CNY
hotties
gorgeous friends
food
sleeping
ANIME
manga
tv
that 70s show and scrubs
my new phone
my BED
passing uni
my dvds
the BEACH.

loathing ...

BEING SICK
uni
bugs
smokers XD
evil bitch people
having no income
people that wake me up
stupid bogan girls that ask for money when they should stop having sex and start doing normal teenage things
guys that have nothing else better to do then make people miserable just because they will amount to NOTHING.
evil people on the roads who drive dangerous. and who DRINK DRIVE
FLIES
prissy girls
petrol prices
junk food accessibility
halitosis
getting the bottom of my jeans wet on a rainy day
how it can be so freaking cold sometimes

post its .