exodus.state

hurrah indeed

2008-03-22T21:59:00.004+09:00

well another busy saturday has just past

happy easter btw

but it was major busy at work =/ and we short on staff. with a locum ( though he seemed to cope and didnt mind but i think he did. deep deep down he didnt anticipate being busy for 4 hours straight) sigh dont think he'll want to do that again will he.

anyways hurrah for guitar hero.
hurrah for its super awesomeness
hurrah for me being a noob and only doing easy on all 3 games =) doing well but.
shutup.
i dont wanna do medium.
i cant even do that last song on easy on guitar hero 3. if i cant do that WELL i am not moving on.
but hurrah indeed.

hurrah for facebook and its awesome photo sharing capabilities.

hurrah for allied health! which some people thought was a CRAP night but i though it was relatively good. better than last time. and my feet DO still hurt from it =/
>got few good photos
>had a funny voyage to the actual place
>met people on the way
>met people from high school i havent seen in YEARS. a long time
>had to swap between uni people and school people but worked out in the end
>few people got drunk
>a few drinks got spilled (one by me and NO i was not drunk - i only had 2 drinks)
>a few hot guys
>none paying attention to us-probably my fault kristy its ALWAYS ME =(
>good music
>dirty dancing
>glass everywhere on the floor
>few people upset
>seedy guys *shudder*
>old guys
>blood on shirts
>nudity
>ooh la la
>fun had by all really
>ended too early

but all in all hurrah indeed.

i finally watched anchorman and ratatouille- thanks jordan for watching it with me. even though the rest of the boys were falling asleep by the end of it.

must go see step up 2

but atm should sleep early to wake up tmw to do my report on sterile stuff. ARGH.

shawty got low low low low low low low low....

do you agree with me?

2008-03-11T23:34:00.003+09:00

oh how much do i <3 skins?

much much

well uni has commenced quite a while ago and its the same same. cep harder and more annoying since i dont remember half the stuff you are meant to know for this year that was learnt last year, except some things make more sense now but others are just more and more confusing.

i hate needles and vaccinations. and seeing my blood in quite a large looking vial makes me queasy to my knees and beyond. my arm HURTS.

but what has to be done is done.so far.

yet i must remember to see the doctor more often. i am a Z person. but this building constant pressure in my head is a cause for concern. i dont think its a migraine because it doesnt hurt. its just there. and the only relief i have is to crack my neck which is not something youre meant to do. what to do. at least the nurse seemed genuinely concerned haha. to be nice enough.it is however i thnk getting progressively worse...

allied health is on soon, hoorah!

and for all those who actually bother to check my blog every so often i have my saturday and friday nights free now. double hoorah! i plan to use them wisely this year. time for ME.

and well...i cant wait til winter comes. i've had enough of hot weather. i want cold.
i want jeans and boots and scarves and cardigans. i want not having to smell sweaty people that always seem to seat in my vicinity. it just makes me nauseous really.
but i am going to miss beach days.

i should sleep. and so i shall.

WATCH SKINS.

i want to

2008-02-28T12:14:00.003+09:00

spend more time on myself this year.

spend more time to hang with friends.

spend more time making new friends.

spend more time travelling.

spend more time taking photos.

spend more time making memories.

spend more time being happy.

everyday people-arrested development.

deepening into despair...

2008-02-21T00:38:00.003+09:00

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none

There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do

'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood

i had a dream. upsetting as it was it also was sheer relief that this fear that still lies with within my heart that he will dash my heart to pieces again with the person that was at the beginning. i could feel the overwhelming pain spreading throughout me once again and i think that's when i woke up.
to find that it was not true. i was not sure what to feel. how to feel.
its like i'm waiting for that day. for him to end it all. whether it be with her or someone else...
and once again i fear i will make myself feel the fool- finding out through other means than the source it should come from. i still remember that day... wanting to run in the oncoming rain until i felt numb and my lungs felt exasperated. wanting to collapse and cry but could not like many and had to get on with things. having no one to talk to that day, the pain subsiding, the only person i wanted to talk to was unavailable. i think it was at this time things changed. people asked me why i was so quiet at times. i became wary. i closed in. i had no energy left. nothing left to say...that day...

its not easy but it shouldnt be this hard.

wow

2008-02-14T01:56:00.002+09:00

this holiday if you can even call it a holiday is f***king pointless really.

maybe i'm just saying it because i am alone.

i cant wait til this week is over.

but it does feel like its all going down in flames.

just like the f***king weather.

fuck it.

MY EYES FFS.

2008-02-13T01:11:00.000+09:00

i do not know what is happening to my eyes.
but i dont think theyre meant to be like this.

i did get contacts though
and it is totally weird being able to see things clearly without glasses.
IT IS.
but i like it.
i cant wear them for too long though cos it makes the part underneath my iris
hurt like HELL.
so that's when i gotta take em off or douse my eye with refresh.
oh and they are a bitch to put it.
bitch.

besides that uni starts really soon and looking back on the holidays
i really dont know what i have done for the past two months
not a lot i'd say.
oh wait make that three months.
hmm

there is one thing i need to go though.
get a hair cut.
AHH its like gone disaster on me for the past month.
it just doesnt sit properly!!!=(
and i dont wanna go the hair dressers for them to chop it all off
cos that is what they'll do
they'll chop it all off
even when i tell them not to
they do
ARGH
i loathe hairdressers and their desire to snip off wanted hair
CURSE yousss

i need to find a good hairdresser
if i can do that this year it'll be GREAT.

oh yeah everyone like EVERYONE has to watch skins.
in fact. i'm going to waste the rest of my downloading on skins.
note to self: download season one of skins
i'm glad teevee is back on
but why do they always put it all on one night so you cant watch it when you want to
its not like your IQ or teeboo can record like 3 shows at once
WHY

well after my last post
i dont know if i feel any better than i do now
i think
i've gone numb again to all the crying and depressionness
its just kinda worn me thin
it makes me wonder if its what i'm really feeling
or just the result of too much pondering over the situation
i dont think i'll never know because in all the midst of it
it just feels like overwhelming pain and disgust just sets in at myself because its being so ostentatious and i hate people like that.

it really does feel like when you want to talk to someone
but then again you dont know whether you really do
like how the words are on the tip of your tongue
but they wont come out
or you dont know whether its because you dont want them do
cos if you do of course you cant take it back
the damage it done
but you feel like youre going crazy either way
and telling them wont make a difference
but theyre right next to you
but you feel so far away
like telling people youre fine
but really youre not
and you dont know whether you should tell them or not
because its just a hopeless situation that is just...yeah.

if you ask me why i'm mad at you
why i'm mad
at you
i could go on
for a very long time
a veryy. long. time.
about all the times
that have contributed to this madness
and i wonder if i'd remember tham all
whether i'd go crazy from everything
and i'm sure we'd think after
what the hell are we even trying to make this work
and will it ever work
all the times where i shouldve gotten mad
i realise now
why do i put up with it...
i think i'm just expecting you to...

am i putting myself through too much
am i putting you through too much
are we too much

it just feels empty
that phrase
when you say those words
it doesnt hold any weight
in fact it feels meaningless
because i dont think that you do.
i dont need to hear it.
its not a failsafe at all.

'seen better days...'

hit me harder.

2008-02-08T23:30:00.001+09:00

i dont know if i want to say this to you but.
i had to let it out somewhere.
i doubt you'll read this though...
or even realise this is about you.
at this point in time.
i cant talk to you.
or i dont know if its i dont want to talk to you.
there is also fear that if i do.
i'll just end up feeling angry like i have for the past two weeks.
i didnt realise it myself but it has been building up since the start of this year.
besides feeling angry it just reminds me of all the times i've felt the same.
and it just makes me cry.
and swear.
and tired.
and just wonder what on earth i'm doing.

i know youre busy.
youre always somewhere.
always with someone.
doing something.
youre a busy person.
but i feel like i'm.. not there. the distance is killing me. there's no communication. no replies. emails. messages. no phone calls. or what constitutes proper phone calls with no consideration.no listening to what i say. not realising i dont live the hours that you do. so what is there.

this is hurting me more than i thought it would.

i dont think i'm expecting much.
maybe i am. maybe i'm that type of person.
i dont think you'd ever tell me.
youre a busy person.
but at the moment i cant... i am not right.
maybe it'll go away. maybe not. its been about two weeks.
today it felt like it was fading. but i'm not sure when it'll go for good.
you dont have to do anything.
i just think sometimes you say things and do things differently. and dont realise there's always collateral.everyone does it i guess.
this is probably unfair. you probably think somewhat in a similar context to me.
but we havent always been peachy keen.
so i think more effort is required.
i dont know if its worth it.

maybe i have too much time to think about all this crap.

dont worry.
youre too busy at the moment.
just...later okay.
sometime later.
when youve settled yourself.
and when i've...yeah.
when i can read this and not cry.
later.

maybe it'll be a better lunar year this year...

2008-02-07T23:09:00.000+09:00

YAY happy cny.

well its been a CRAZY day. the weather took an odd almost melbourne turn with it turning crazy cold and storm rainy instead of being the usual hot it was yesterday and it WAS HOT. it was 9 in the evening and it was still humid, felt like it was 30 degrees and i was suffocating =(

BUT TODAY

woke up and it was not HOT. it was in fact. COOL. cool as rain can be with all its flooding glory and trying not to get my feet wet as i get into my car but twas inevitable as could not be bothered trying to climb over from the PASSENGER's seat. yes the length's i go to. and because of the glorious glorious rain there was really no people at the pharmacy today!except it meant no shortage of rude and weird customers coming in asking for drugs they probably shouldnt take but DO. ALL THE TIME.

which reminds me of heath ledger and his tragic drug overdose =(
not only is one of perth's best young actors dead but also a loving father, a loved son of both family and of hollywood itself. thinking about how will his daughter ever remember him does quieten the soul.not only this the drugs he did take will be once again be put into the BAD light. PFFT.

yes it was one of those days where you just wanna sleep. or chill out in bum clothes watching trash teevee or surfing youtube. or you know you could read a book. or OPRAH. that's pretty worthwhile.

i planned to go shopping tmw but it looks like i will not have the time and no i cannot be bothered driving to gc then driving back home to the doctors then back again to shop some more. its nearing the end of the holidays and after so much work i'm not sure why i'm still sitting on the same amount i had BEFORE holidays commenced. i think i do have however many, many,much dresses i did not have before. however i did manage to get a pair of pretty WHITE [oh sigh the CLEANING]high heel boots today. but they are so so. so pretty. i also found a dress. but had no time to try on the garment so will see tmw whether it looks like a bag on me or is quite slimming. i AM one of those people who believe you can never have too many pairs of socks, shoes and undergarments/lingerie.

where has my money gone these holidays? i'm really not sure. but another new aim for this lunar year is to save up. SAVE UP SERIOUSLY. i really do want to go on a holiday. and when i do come back i'd like to have at least some moolah left. at this stage that is near IMpossible. maybe this lunar year WILL be better...

hey

watch SKINS btw. its a short series but an awesome series. and series TWO is coming out eeee. they wont have it here though. i may have to resort to other means.
well enough.

*I leave the rest to you.

**Its up to you to leave it to me. But what to do you believe i can do?

*Everything.

*Save us...

*And change fate.

GONG XI.

2008-02-05T19:25:00.001+09:00

yayyy!

chinese new year is RIGHT around the corner.ie in a few days

but i have an EYE INFECTION. yes ewwwwww it is disgusting so yes KEEP AWAY FROM ME

the weather is again horrible. its exactly like overseas. hot. humid. and muggy =(

my mummy <3 made heapsa food [hot and sour soup ftw]!! should clean for the new year though =(

and with some help from my mum i made TA-DAH!!!

yes that's right. and THERE'S A LOT OF THEM MUHAHAHAHHA [hording time =D]

finally back to the doctor and getting paid means getting my contacts =D yay

and ALSO some of my favourite shows come back!!! like bondi rescue; house; medium! yay

and so you think you can dance AUSTRALIA has STARTED =O!!!

happy birthday to february babies. ken 1st; ivan 3rd; and nancy 4th!!!

catchyaz.

we're all in this together.

2008-01-28T15:17:00.000+09:00

with the extreme heat that is hitting us finally this summer it is making me more concerned about global warming and the impact it'll have on us in the future.

WHAT TO DO.

-DONT WASTE WATER. yes thats right. useful little contraption called a shower timer which i found recently at the post office of all places can be useful at these times.

-setting your a/c in your house to 24 degrees and ABOVE. see your house doesnt have to be freezing

-take out some time in your life to plant a tree. you yourself may not have the time to plant one but by accessing the internet of the phone you can help other people. take mount franklin. their well of positivity has contributed to the good cause of fighting breast cancer with their awesome pink tops and now have recently released slightly green coloured bottles that if you go to the listed website. www.thewellofpositivity.com by entering in the code they'll plant a tree for you. well i hope they keep to their word and lets just believe in human kindness and completely trust they will. i have!

i'm sorry i've neglected you my blog

the lure of such things as sleep laziness and FACEBOOK have ensnared me in their siren like call. another new years resolution of paying more attention to my blog and also to take more care of myself by eating less and exercising more.

it feels like my head is about to POP.

music nowadays seems much more generic. i miss old music- no wonder people still tune in to 94.5

groove armada-my friend.

TRUE BLUE.

2008-01-28T00:56:00.000+09:00

hey!

hope everyone had an awesome:
1)christmas
2)new years
3)australia day

mine werent very good cep new years i think..but even then.

atm it feels like

and i hate it. and it'll be the same for the coming week. =(

holidays are nearly over for school kiddies

thank god

but i'm not happy because i dont get to spend time with my brother a lot anymore which has been funny these holidays

year 12 is a bummer

been eating too much these holidays

not exercising

watching dvds

feels well spent.

cant wait til i get paid because that means contact lenses! [yay]

i miss people that are overseas

however some of those people i dont want to talk to atm [ i dont think i'm expecting too much]

there's no one to hang with

people will think i've died or gone away

have too many new dresses and shoes and no where to wear them

should really go back to saving money for a holiday

kinda looking forward to uni again

thinking back on these holidays and how eventful and uneventful they've been

people getting together

people travelling

people making the most of it

people working heaps

and then there's me.

have to make a list of things to do before uni starts.

like going to the beach

and going to the cas

and going back to metros in fluoro crap with lily

and buying presents...

oh and have to visit the doctor

and dentist [=(]

sigh

well its late

this is coming soon though. lol

this'll probably be me though

we'll c lah.

merry christmas!

2007-12-17T02:06:00.000+09:00

well its been a long time since i've posted but i'm back!
so much has happened in the last few months, its been crazy
i'll write a big post about it later -its late as you can see and i'm too tired. plus it took me a while like it always does, to figure out how to lay out this page.
but i thought it was time to revamp my blog, so i did!
and since its summer...well i miss sunny perfect days with perfect weather by the beach and lazy arvos hanging with friends laughing over memories...

yes. well i'm going to put photos up and everything! gasp! so just wait i guess, if anyone still visits
and if you do read this, merry christmas! enjoy your holidays as well!

afternoon delight!!

2007-09-05T18:23:00.000+08:00

hey how is everyone doing

its the start of september and already birthdays are starting!!
happy birthday to diana for sept 4th you are crazy beautiful!! i hope you have fun rollawaying away to the 70s groovy tunes and moves

oh and after a studious study break besides going clubbing that saturday which was totally awesome but. the test...seemed...BAD. i really dont like pharmacology but i think i belong to the majority.
i managed to increase my dvd collection!!!
sixteen candles and the breakfast club are two of the best movies ever!! i love molly ringwald
oh and i managed to get the godfather series

everyone go and see the eygptian exhibition from the louvre at the art gallery!! its well worth it seeing all the artefacts they have uncovered in such extraordinary condition, for 15 dollars its like a little trip to the louvre itself, it really is amazing

i feel like i'm up to date in study but i know i'm not, how sad...

at least i got my justin timberlake tickets!!! WOOO.
i really want to go shopping but then again i want to start saving money again

and why has everyone on the radio gone on holiday this week!!! no nathan and nat =( hamish and andy replays!! i dont understand!! my days are less brightened in the early rainy cold mornings. the monday did bring a random day of sunshine with 27 degrees but once again the skies open and the temperature plummeted to knee knocking degrees.

i wonder when my professional ball photos are ready...

and yes i joined facebook [why!!] besides its time consumption and odd functions which i refuse to give into it is a good way to share wanted photos. but i still dont like it.

gonna find my baby gonna hold her tight
gonna grab some afternoon delight.

song of the moment: afternoon delight

just a few things

2007-08-15T20:19:00.000+08:00

hey yeah i havent blogged in a while
but uni is just.
harder.
and more time consuming if you dont believe me.
i hate pharmacology

well few things

yay that 70s show season six is out tmw on sale at big W which MEANS i shall go and become poorer.significantly poorer

and pay weeks next week!! thats too far away

yay i have las vegas season 1 to 3, fast and the furious trilogy, the bourne movies, and few other classics!! which means i'm outta pocket =(

will become poorer next week as justin timberlake tickets go on sale and gold ones cost 148 dollars..... OTL

unless i somehow luckily get through to nova 937 tmw morning and win those EIGHT count em EIGHT tickets to his concert which is at the crappiest time 9 nov right before exams!!! ARGH!!! still wanna go though

yeah uni just sucks balls, i'm just too tired everyday, at this present moment i'm zoning out...

dyed my hair recently so its reddy purply, just the way i like it so it kinda matches me dress...

for the PHARMACY BALL THIS SATURDAY!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO its gonna be such a blast!!!!! yeah but that cost me...new shoes bag some make up -_-"BOO and have to taxi home that night ARGH.

petrol has kinda dropped this week but it still seems too much -_-"

and omg jamie!!! you FOB!!!! you converted!! theyve done something to you!!! next thing i know you'll have fob hairCUT and side swept fringE!!! you fringe nazi!!! things have CHANGED INDEED.

yay mexican yummy tummy club lunch tmw WOO!!!! more money gone

oh and catch up last night was good...i guess

and sif diana you BAIL when you semi organise it!!! SIF. i know it was cold but this whole thing is about making an EFFORT. an EFFORTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. thats how you get results!! good results!! BAH...

jt-ing.

hello wisconsin

2007-07-23T00:41:00.001+08:00

i really really love that 70s show!!!

well its nearing the end of a very long. study break. from uni which is kind of ridiculous but does really promote the fact that youre on your own!!

all my women who independent throw ya hands up at me~

hahaha i'm listening to way old songs so scuze the lyrical references

and well considering we have holidays for like one third of the year. yes. that is 4 months!?!? how you ask!? well considering 2 months at the start of the year, 1 month in the middle and about 2 at the end of the year?HM. makes you wonder...what we do with the rest of the time that we have!and why uni sucks so much money out of you for some reason
yes we have discussed the fact why curtin is always building something
and why slowly. very slowly the greenery in the uni is dissapating to give way to ugly ugly grey and orange concrete buildings. honestly!! it is really is a science based uni because no person in their right mind with a sense of colour coordination would have sinned thus so.
well yes uni begins in a week so begin again the painstaking 8am starts that never seem to die and the long long uni breaks that usually consist of doing some work. but barely any due to tiredness. well persevere! the only good thing about uni is another slight exscuse to meet up with friends i guess

i'm a survivor i'm gonna make it i'm will survive keep on survivin'

well the past week has been a blast~! for those who didnt know my parents did go away and well it does have its advantages. and well in the word of most of the guys especially craig "no party wtf?' . well i'm certainly not going to clean up the ass mess that you boys usually leave after a party so. are you? i dont think so. its my holidays my time . i'd rather not spend it cleaning up~ but parties are fun no doubt. gives me an excuse to turn up the music to deafening reaches and shake the wagon i'm draggin

my body so bootylicious baby~

which reminds me of how awesome the leedy was last wed even though it was me and dino that comprised the girls side, it was still really awesome even with the 1 girl to.4 guys? getting the guyss to dance like crazy~ and we were on the floor til the music stopped. which was at 12 but hey 3 hours of crazy dancing is good enough for me! even though the music changes a bit fast at least they play better music then metros. hands down!

which leaves me to tell how metros was yesterday. well this morning...the cloak room is pathetic. next time i'm wearing jeans to hold stuff. and hey stuffing money in your bra really does help when you dont have pockets. i'm still sorry for crashing you matt and queena and your date which was not a date apparently. but maybe i shouldnt have gone. maybe i should have stayed home and read my last installlment of harry potter which is my brother is desperately trying to finish before he heads to bed atm and with the fact that i'm goading him only makes him read faster! yay. but yeah being a third wheel is so lame!! this is what i resort to sam when youre away!!! and no none of the other girls really like metros city so =/ what to do EH. music was pretty crap though i still think the leedy is better but whoa did see a lotta people i did know
most of them guys? but girls from school!! ahh weizhen i'd love to steal your wardrobe!! and it was good seeing you. i dont think anthony recognised me but shrugs eh i thought i'd be polite, sorry i didnt say hi brendan!? you prob dont read my blog anyways hahaha but i did try to find you after with no avail.

and well these holidays have been well spent to relax and take time for myself. esp this past week! it was a blast really, i earnt more money then i thought with more working and chilling out with spent money earned on dvds and clothes...and god knows what, its that feeling where you feel like WHERE THE HELL DID MY MONEY GO?! and just staying up late and catching up with people. thanks for the t shirt jordan? have i mentioned that!? and well that catch up at clancy's fish pub [ which is such a cool cosy hangout really!!whic means we should go there more] then at gelares where it was total fun, driving diana home to her house in SUCCESS. haha i wanna go shopping at gateway for some random reason...and i really wish i had won the lotto!

oh yeah and i bought a portable hard drive and chucked all my music/ manga onto it eh~ which is totally awesome! means i can bring it out around places, helps with uni and parties [music] and well...its just awesome!!just like all you people who actually bother to read what i write. which is totally just a waste of time HAHA.

some things never change though
like how my dad still thinks my glasses are horrible and old looking and apparently they are like ugly betty glasses. well i want a new pair anyways but shrugs.. i'll get around to it later i think i need to go for another eye check i feel like my power has increased. ie. i'm getting blinder.
and my phone keeps randomly dying for no reason ie. timeto get a new phone!!!but i realised i'm gradually building up my technological product ownage -mp3,ps2,camera,portable hard drive all essential to the runnings of an everyday modern life. i think i'm pitching in later for a new comp or something...well later..

oh oh and my pharmacist bought a new mazda 3. SIGH. and its a pretty dark blue green colour!! oh i soo want one now. in phantom purple.

REALITY CHECK.

while my parents are away

2007-07-17T16:26:00.000+08:00

just a few words.

christina aguilera is still my playlist of the week.

i blew 250 dollars in one day. 200 which was on dvds- i have that 70s show season 3 to 5, all of the harry potter movies and the matrix trilogy. plus rebel without a cause [heart james dean] and step up =D
and i continue my dvd collecting yayyy.

that 70s show is that awesome

I MISS YOU SPAMMERS.

nobody ever wants to come out anymore. they always seem to bail at the last minute.

jordan- yay youre back!! and yay you bought me an extreme shirt which i HEART with all my HEART. thanks for hanging with me yesterday. until you had work.

i should really stop spending money~

i love pay WEEK.

i need to buy a ball dress. i realise. damn jb hifi and its damn cheap dvds!!!ARGH i always come out with less money and more dvds...which are cheap and a good buy. but ohh equals no money

AND TODAY WAS ONE OF THE BEST DAYS EVER. WHERE I GOT FREE NEUTROGENA SCRUB FROM COLES COS THEY OVERCHARGED ME AND SOMEHOW I GOT IT FOR FREE?

good day.

christina aguilera <3

2007-07-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

"Save Me From Myself"-Christina Aguilera

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you've gotta be
Everything's changin
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

When I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waitin
with your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
from myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Cuz some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm cryin
Cuz when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smilin
You always save me from myself
from myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you
It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
a better woman to myself
to myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

happy birthday to kristy! we partied hard on your birthday and i'm sure you had a total blast for your nineteenth~ love you babe!

and the christina aguilera concert was absolutely awesome! so worth the 104 dollars i spent. listen to her new album everyone!

i really should go sleep. i think i've overexerted my working this week.

so i'm not in a good mood

2007-07-08T00:22:00.000+08:00

i'm at one of those points where you really hate your parents for thinking in your bloody best interest
like honestly what is the point of being 18 on a saturday night?~?~ honestly!?!? with working all the time i really dont have time for a social life besides at these times?!?!? oh and yes maybe i shouldnt work then. but how else am i going to get money? from the sky? the cat next door?!?

apparently i'm not allowed a social life past 12 o clock

its like " its not that youre not allowed. but its not safe so no you cant go. even though there's going to be like 20 people there that youve known for years and years. no you cant bloody well go.they'll all turn on you and cut you down with no thought cos really. deep down. theyre not your friends. at ALL." rinse and repeat. and repeat. and repeat. and you wonder y teenagers eyes seem to glaze over or they tune out

times like these i just feel like hitting something

and you know how everything they say just kinda makes you angrier
i wonder if one day i'll turn white with rage and destroy all humankind
maybe

and how do they know how to time at exactly the WORST time.
just when youre all ready. got everything. putting on your shoes, opening the front door

so its come to one of these moments where i wish i didnt live at home and could have a normal nowdays social life. this is why it is important to have older siblings break you in.
unfortunately for me that was not the case.

frickin frick.

in love again

2007-07-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

well its been another week
a wasted saturday night
i was too knackered anyways..

in the meantime my sisters leaving for adelaide tmw morning for 3 months or so

casablanca and roman holiday are two great movies

i'm starting to feel like again that i'm not myself
the myself i want to be?
everyone seems to be moving forward cep me
i seem to be stuck watching things pass me by
i dont know whats wrong
maybe everything
nothing feels right at the moment
i'm not sure what i'm meant to do
i just feel like staring into space
or maybe just sleeping it off
but at the same time i want to cherish every minute i'm free to do things
i dont get a lot of time to do that anymore
but theres no one there with me
maybe i'm trying too hard
i feel fake
i think...

its weird how they show romantic bits up to the swoon and kiss but what happens after? thats all fake as well

song of the moment- in love again. rogue traders

here's looking at you kid.

like a star

2007-06-28T13:33:00.001+08:00

"Like A Star"-corinne bailey rae

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honour to love you

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look I can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh...
Your love,

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Now I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

nothing last forever

2007-06-28T13:22:00.000+08:00

all by maroon 5

"Nothing Lasts Forever"

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

"Not Falling Apart"

Ooh…

Danced all night, slept all day
Careless with my heart again
Fearless when it comes to playing games

You don’t cry, you don’t care
Afraid to have a love affair
Is that your ghost or are you really there?

Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I’m stuck living out that night again
I’m not falling apart

Ooh, oh

Weather on a sunny day
Time slows down; I wish you’d stay
Pass me by in crowded, dark hallways
Mmm

Try my hardest not to scream
I find my heart is growing weak
So leave your reasons on the bathroom sink

Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I’m stuck living out that night again
I’m not falling apart

I heard you say you needed me now
What’s the problem I can’t see
You destroyed me, I won’t fall apart again
I’m not falling apart

Take what you want
I will be just fine
You will be better off alone at night
Waiting and falling
Constantly calling out your name
Will it ever change?

Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore
Since you walked out the door
And now I’m stuck living out that night again
I’m not falling apart

I heard you say you needed me now
What’s the problem I can’t see
You destroyed me, I won’t fall apart again
I’m not falling apart

Ohh, ooh

Better That We Break"

I never knew perfection til
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?

It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break…

A fool to let you slip away
I chase you just to hear you say
You’re scared and that you think that I’m insane

The city look so nice from here
Pity I can’t see it clearly
While you’re standing there, it disappears
It disappears

It’s not right, not OK
Say the word it should say

Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break

Saw you sitting all alone
You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right
Life these days is getting rough
They’ve knocked you down and beat you up
But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah

It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?

I’m not fine, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?

I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break, baby

"Back At Your Door"

From the moment the lights went off
Everything had changed
Lie awake in an empty room
In my head it all feels the same

Like the taste of the day you left
That still lingers on my breath
And the dampness of tears that left
A stain where you had wept

All alone with the negligee
That still hangs off of my bed
I keep meaning to give it away
But I just leave it there instead

No need to cry about it
I cannot live without it
Every time I wind up back at your door

Why do you do this to me?
You penetrate right through me
Every time I wind up back at your door

3 more days 'til I see your face
I’m afraid it’s far too much
Cook a meal and fix up the place
Dial your number, hang it up

If I took you for granted
I apologize for acting tough
You’re my reason for living
And there’s no way I’m giving up, oh

Don’t need to cry about it
I cannot live without it
Every time I wind up back at your door

Why do you do this to me?
You penetrate right through me
Every time I wind up back at your door

Now every evening is a bitter fight
And I’m eating home alone on a Friday night
I know what your friends say
“You’re just wasting your love and time”
I will never let you change your mind

No need to cry about it
I cannot live without it
Every time I wind up back at your door

Why do you do this to me?
You penetrate right through me
Every time I wind up back at your door

No need to cry about it
I may just die without it
Every time I wind up back at your door

Why do you do this to me?
You penetrate right through me
Every time I wind up back at your door

Every time I wind up back at your door
Every time I wind up back at your door

songs of the moment.
maroon 5-a little of your time
michael buble- call my irresponsible, lost, everything, the world on a string

whats wrong with me

2007-06-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

oceans 13 is absolutely awesome
george clooney is old. but still hot.
and so are brad pitt and matt damon.
oh i wanna watch it again
and its made some of the girls and i want to get dressed up and head to the cas to have a fun night out. especially before sam leaves,but there might be a problem with money. hmmm

but i feel like lately being so anti social with all the work and uni has made me become. socially inept. incompetent even. i feel like lately i keep saying really wrong and vulgar things that people should retort. like how people speak before they think. yeah maybe i should be just restricted to not talking and just listening.
otherwise i feel like a complete idiot

oh yeah and i bought more stuff
which makes me even poorer
but spending time with my mum was good
and once again why didnt you come say hi to me sam!! i'm oblivious to most people and things around me ie i have no common sense
but yes i bought perfume! more calvin klein eternity moment cos my bottles nearing half way and its the only perfume i use nowadays 49 dollars for 100ml is pretty cheap
and i bought my dream boots
asi i found out stocktake is a dream and reduced them to half price. to an affordable price.

i love my dream boots.

song of the moment: powderfinger-lost and running

so who's poor?

2007-06-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

oh i am so poor.

i think spending a little well over two hundred dollars does that to you

but it was very well spent

purchases include:

awesome jacket n a singlet

two pairs of jeans

a sexy satin dress [i wanted it in scarlet red too.i still want it.]

oh and i bought one ages ago but i thought i'd show it as well

tights

bras

two pairs of hot shoes red heels and sachis[i'll put em up later]

a belt

a semi cardigan over top thing

a bracelet and earrings

and...a present. i think thats it.

but i do still want

boots

white specs

that awesome super mario world top from jayjays

those caramel chocolate peep toe shoes from harbortown

and sin city which i regret not buying at this very moment

oh and i'm meant to get a dress for the pharm ball

well then working over the next few weeks will compensate

things i should do

donate blood

study more

sleep more

get a haircut

redye my hair

exercise

clean up my room

clean the car

wash my clothes-which i shall do tmw

but yeah i thought i'd put a few photos. cos i havent used my camera ina while and i'm slightly bored and its still really cold.

good night

done with exams

2007-06-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

well i am so glad that exams are over and DONE WITH.
but for one thing i hope that i do pass
and i hope that if i do not pass that i will get a supp
even though they are such a bitch
but at least its saying theyre giving you a second chance
and that you dont fail and have to
repeat.
damn.

well i figured since i'm done i'd be just relaxing for the next month
but atm it just looks like i'm working
so how does that work?
i was planning to be a total lazy ass and not do nothing
but plans have taken a turn
and now i dont know what to do

sorry matt that i cant come to your birthday function
work is a bitch but i need the money
to refuel what is going to be a spending spree-age tmw
retail therapy always works like a charm
like even today i bought the red heels i have been eyeing
and harbor town was heck crazy
i'm glad that tmw is a monday and that everyone will be at work or exams still meaning it will be less annoying people

lessons i have learned today include things about static electricity-from my sister
like how keeping to get in and out of your car can set the pump on fire
and that a shock is like 2000 to 4000volts
see this is stuff that everyone NEEDS TO KNOW
and that black sesame gelato. yeah thats right. is AWESOME.

i still need to do my scrubathon
but things i am looking forward to include
being a couch potato
catching up with people like going to the movies on tuesday
shopping and sleeping in
being able to stay up late-r

and since i figured that all the stocktake sales are happening
i will change the layout of my blog
soon

oh and i want a clear umbrella. kmart being lame and all has stopped stocking them. they were there one week. then *poof*but in the meantime

i heart my new red shoes and black sesame gelato.

oh now ive gone and done it

2007-06-07T09:45:00.001+08:00

i'm taking a break from studying this thursday morning to tell you about my SPENDINGS
which of course i dont regret
i'm now just poor
damnit.

since there's like no clothes i like to buy nowadays i've sequestered my money into buying movies and tv series
SO FAR. after coming back from big W just then my collection comes TO
season 1 to 5 of scrubs
family guy season 1 and 2
lord of the rings trilogy-which was surprisingly cheap- only 13 dollars per 2 disc pretty set
napoleon dynamite!! hahaha he's so cool...

and what i DO want to buy is
that 70s show!!! ahh atm my sisters borrowing them froma work colleague but i just saw them in bigW just then and they were only 30 bucks per season, stupid jbhifi were selling them for like 50 something what a rip so i'm contemplating in getting them...after exams...to spend my holidays watching =D...yes..i shall do that
house is on special there too!! 36 bucks a season which is pretty darn cheap compared to other stupid stores go bigW ftw!
and they have a few other movies i kinda want like dude where's my car HAHA thats such a good dumb movie..
oh and i wanna get sin city and fight club cos they both are awesome and i shall venture to jbhifi after exams to get them!

but yeah atm now i'm poor...i think...well poorer so if you ask me to come out during holidays and i cant i'll either
1) be too poor to
2)be watching all the stuff that i bought especially scrubs =D
3)be working
4)studying for pharm chem test

oh and i also want boots =D

boo studying.

I HEART THAT 70s SHOW.*

a few things

2007-05-29T14:21:00.000+08:00

well since exams are soon people have stopped posting on their blogs, and maybe its just not exams either people have just abandoned them. but yeah a few things:

i hate everything about pharmaceutics at this point. how am i meant to know all these stupid equations!!!?!?!?1

no jamie i'm not going to be a sheep and follow all of you to work at burswood where: i dont have a say in my shift and get crap graveyard shifts where i have to put up with drunk people for money and a sore arm and stress from not trying to drop a tray of glasses. screw that.
like i said time over money.

yay shopping...i want to go shopping...

ahhh pharm chem is stupid. and that list is so LONG.

oh and its too cold atm. CURSE YOU COLD.

i still hate the host of ready steady cook

and i miss all my friends who i havent seen in months. YES. MONTHS. my life is dull.

omg miss japan won miss universe!! and poor miss usa tripped

i want soup...

ahaha sorry i missed you bryan.

i bitch too much therefore i am a bitch. i just want everyone to be miserable. how malevolent.

study time.

happy mothers day

2007-05-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY
god bless all mothers out there. they always deserve more than they get. especially for putting up with bratty children. and other stuff.

in short form

happy birthday to jamie and jo for the 11th of may!!!

for jamie- like i told you before you will always be one of the greatest men in my life and dont you forget it. and even though i guess we barely see each other at uni with you and your models and me and my degree =/ sigh what ever happened to high school chattings til 4 in the morning?
BOO to how those days are over temporarily

which brings me to say that uni does indeed still suck
exams are nearing WHICH IS SO NOT GOOD. why is it going so fast WHY

oh and issoks hubie i'll be your bitch victim. i dont mind- let all your frustrations out on me =P anytime you want, i probably wont take it too seriously anyways

oh

and

MY NEW CAMERA IS THE SEX.

which means next time i see YOU kenny!!! our day shall consist of. CAMERA WHORING. if only you were here hubie ^_^ what fun we'd HAVE.

much love.

happy birthday wolfgang! our pharm chem lecturer

2007-04-27T15:10:00.000+08:00

happy birthday wolfgang wimmer! our pharm chem lecturer~!
bahaha anyone would be embarrassed if like 200 students sang happy birthday to you

well yeah midsems marks are as expected but oh well, studying more nowadays as a consequence!
nearly the end of another week and more random weather

its Chao's (1st may) and ben Q's (2nd may) NEXT WEEK!
we shall organise something because of 7 hour break on tuesday
maybe bake them a cake. mmm cake.

i baked muffins and hedgehog slice but its nearly all gone

it was anzac day! april 25th- salute to those to fought for this great country, helping it be what it is

i bought a new dress!! which i am wearing atm- and new sunnies! OO and i love my new cardigan!! shuddapp i still havemoney left!! i do work all the time and have no social life =/

but it was good to catch up with the girls on tuesday night

i love milo.

midsems are a BITCH.

2007-04-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

midsems ARE a BITCH.

well while lots of people still have midsems to study for mine are apparently over and yes. they were.
HORRIBLE.
i'll be lucky to pass.
and having a 7 hr break i did NOTHING. yes. i should utilise my time better but after cramming for a week or so. my head hurts. and just wants to do nothing.

unfortunately that cant happen BECAUSE i'm meant to be doing my microbio assgn now which IS due tmw.=( boo
well hopefully it wont take that long.

i've been on a hate rampage lately. more of like peter griffin and "you know what grinds my gears?"
i shall add more things i HATE to my hate list. YES I AM FULL OF BITTERNESS AND RESENTMENT.i thrive on misery. wahahahahaha.

but atm its too cold again- it feels like mid winter...its definitely wet like midwinter, our roof leaked in two places =/ a whole months worth of rain in one day can do that to you

i feel like just sleeping atm...in this big coat...zzz...NO MUST FINISH ASSGNING. so i CAN relax tmw night...but i am expanding my things i want to BUY list: i wanna really nice bag...but i also want to use it for uni. but in doing so i'll probably ruin a nice ex bag. so DILEMMA REIGNS...and i'm definitely getting a new phone ^_^ maybe during break..time to look at phones again!!

and besides todays awful midsem,
ben you shunned me!! i waved. NORESPONSE.
and
i found out someone nearly died...from drink driving...AND IT SEEMS HE DOESNT CARE!?!?!?how is that possible...it really puts things in perspective..made me feel really sad and i really cant imagine life without him...THERE. its just...he probably doesnt read my blog but REALLY AHHH i have to hit him the next time i seehim...you have to care cos..you doo...no more drink driving.. for ANYONE. really it is a big deal...no leaving voids in my life!!!it'll make me feel even more depressed and filled with more resentment and bitterness

well okay enough. my assgn waits...

die yazimat

2007-04-12T15:55:00.000+08:00

well atm my brother is trying to kill the second last mark in the game and with 5 million hp.
it seems like he's been doing nothing for the last 2 or 3 hours...
only 12 more big bars of health to go before it DIES. WOO. and then nearly finished ff12 XD
which means i shall start my own game in the holidays
but at the current moment i'm taking a break from studying biochemistry for midsem tests on monday and tuesday
i refuse to see webct which must have a bajillion posts about topics referring to glycolysis, TCA cycle gluconeogenesis AA's , CT and urea cycle. WE DONT NEED TO KNOW THESE THINGS.
but unfortunately we have to learn them for stupid mid sems.
which means i havent even started on microbio which i figure i wont do as well in,but i kinda know the stuff already (always a bad sign) so therefore i dont need to. study as hard. bah its worth less overall then the biochem one thereFORE. more study time allocated to biochem.
i also still have that blasted microbio assgn to do which leaves me to contemplating going to the library on sunday to steal the books. otherwise dashing off in my 7 hour break on tuesday to snatch the books from the reserve so i can stay up on tuesday night to do it. to hand it in THENEXT DAY. yes...i have not FULLY utilized this study break at all..
shuddap.
but it has been fun
consisting of ff12ing, lazing around, sleeping in and the SUCH.easter put me off that's what. well i should go get ready for work, which reminds me! its the derby this saturday!! CMON EAGLES. they still have yet to beat the dockers in the western derby...such a shame...shuddap ben sif dockers.. well best be off...
-feeling the pressure

oo a new linkin park song!! i forgot what its called but GO LISTEN TO IT. NOW.

bart simpson

2007-04-06T18:32:00.000+08:00

AHAHAHAH simpsons is the best. along with family guy XD but quote of the day goes to bart simpson:

does this thing suck. or blow?

IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

oo song of the moment. stuck in your love by m-flo ft. melody

HARLOW.

2007-04-06T13:30:00.000+08:00

well i said i'd blog everyweek.
and DIDNT.
HO WELL.

anyways how is everyone?
having a good study break curtinites? and with UWAians starting there's its bound its be good

well my week of slacking is over and this week i MUST START STUDYING. well the week's not over yet but technically it is cos saturday is just working all day and sunday prob be sleeping in and slacking more due to maybe going out that night!!! cos UWA have break now XD must GO MEET UP cos havent done that in AGES.

i've been plugging my body full of junk and its got its repercussions, my nose has this huge pimple. one of those bad ones which wont go away and swell up and are just BAD. =(
sigh teaches me a lesson...and just in time for allied health which was GREAT. luckily it was dark and didnt really see anyone i know so pFFt. will maybe hide for a few days til it goes away.
but going out tmw night? meh girls...will not care...yeah...meh being selfconscious SUCKS.
lets drown my sorrows. with a fuji apple.

but YES allied health! it was good [thumbs up] but way too many people= hot sweaty bodies which was really bad cos the dance floor was PACKED fulla people. too many people. and being SHORT doesnt help cos there's taller WAY taller white people.shoving you all the time [stupid tall people...]but the dj's were good!! better than the usual metros, good overall techno and rnb stuff- maybe if we go on sat..i dont think dino wants to though so MAYBE not. maybe kareoke? WOO sounds AWESOME. but yeah i swear we pushed and shoved our way through the dance floor at least 10 times. saw a few familiar faces, pharmacy people,friends,the boys who were pretty drunk, etc etc etc/ too hard in the end to find people and breathe so we just gave up and danced hahaha. it was way to hard to get drinks as well! fire breathers/spinners were good!left when they started playing rock songs and the white people started mass swarming floor haha but yeah feet still hurt! crampy from heels.

oh and i've been on a baking frenzy!! well i made muffins...rich choc chip, choc chip and orange and poppy seed oh and i made a cake yesrterday, marble swirl cake with chocky icing ^_^
baking is AWESOME. at least i'm good at something else i guess haha

mmm...i love milo icecream...MORE JUNK MUHAHAHAHA.

i wanna go see 300 =( HEY ELMO. WHERE HAVE YOU GONE. I HAVENT SEEN YOU IN A LIFETIME AND A HALF. LETS HANG............out.

oh happy easter! remember its not about chocolates and getting drunk and having a seafood bbq frenzy! CONTEMPLATE deep.

base in the place london.*

ahh FEET HURT

2007-03-24T23:55:00.000+09:00

yeah hubie i AM fat. get that all the time.
see its the whole not being to wake up early enough to make myself a decent lunch so i resort to spending all my hard earned cash on crappy uni food which is probably really bad for you as well and then therefore i'm not eating well and eating crappy uni food which equals me being fat

i'm usually really tired after work on saturdays cos i do well work for about half a day. 11 and a half hours but atm the still pretty much awake... maybe its because of that ice coffee shake i had from maccas on my lunch break but that was ages ago...or MAYBE cos it wasnt busy at the restaurant for a saturday night! but my feet are SOOOO sore. i need to get comfier shoes i guess...bah later! i didnt manage to find out some stuff about drugs!! and dispense some labels!!

but i am glad study break is in a week! woo soo going out that saturday- dont know where though... i wonder what the girls i doing? i did say i'd go out with my work peeeps though ... HM hopefully i can stay out late...its study break for good ness sakes!!! eee i'm all excited now!! cant wait cant wait!!

and allied health is coming!! yay shall go dress shopping on monday and also need to find a good pencil case!! cos mine atm is all covered in black and red ink, i'm meant to go check out hte post office, apparently they have good ones

i did get paid on thursday WOO money!!! i'm trying to figure out whether i can get 10 grand by the end of the year...maybe? maybe not??we'll see how i go! and how well i do in uni! speaking of which i must study TCA and glycolysis tmw cos i feel i'm falling and failing way behind!! my memory and attention span is getting shorter!! i need to like take berocca daily!! which i should...zzz either taht or SOMEHOW get more sleep...but then even sometimes more sleep makes you feel more tired!!

i miss you spam. and kenny. when do i get to see you two =(

but as it is nearly the day and there is a likely chance i wont be able to blog on that day

happy birthday to

huimapea who is turning 19

hubimabi who is now a old man aged 20. OLD.

oh and it was martin's birthday on the 23rd-friday? he's 19 as well

but yeah uni is a bitch, i just cant seem to study nowadays...attention span is waning...must find another way to study... because tests are after study break!! nooooo

oo i wanna watch ugly betty!?!?!? does anyone have it...so they can lend it to me =(... please?

my drug pen count totals FOUR now!! coversyl rhinocort moov and...bah i forgot!! its in my pencil case... well yeah must get more!!

have to put mario vazquez on my mp3! and watch bleach 119!! but i do wanna watch naruto as well... maybe over holidays...ooo speaking of holidays i also want to go to melbourne!! but that'll probably never happen... still too poor and saving up!! argh! i hate saving up! its so tedious!! i also hate fuel prices atm and expensive uni food. and mosquitos that come bite you in the absolute worst places...oo and fattening junk food

but i was really hungry yesterday when i had HJs!! i went healthy today though!! chicken avocado sundried tomato lettuce and mayo on multigrain bread!! from miss mauds! gg miss mauds, their outfits are cute which scores them bonus points! woo

well that's enough.

i feel fat...wait thats cos i am fat

2007-03-23T16:05:00.000+09:00

meh i feel fat
i just ate HJs and feel fat now =(
but maybe cos i am fat
anyways
i shouldnt have eaten that much
hope i dont regret it later
MUST WORK IT OFF WITH SQUATS AND STAIRS AT UNI

also must not eat too much tonight.maybe fruit will do. and eat healthy stuff tmw! a sandwich! wholegrain! yum! but atm drowning myself with water to make me somehow feel better. have to finish the rest before i go to work...hopefully it'll be busy so i can burn this fat i just ate OFF.

feeling fat.

ben is cool!

2007-03-21T16:35:00.000+09:00

well we just finished microbiology lab and got our assgns back
and meaning WE i mean lynh ben and I.
it looked like there was nothing on my stain but there WAS.
OW sif lynh throw something at me NO not the book. its big... too big to throw!!!
so dont throw it...
good.
ANYWAYSjust wasting time til lecture starts
OMG LYNH youre going to break the monitor screen and sif turn it away from me LYNH!!!
anyways i think its andrew crowe next...aKA vegemite kid
but must go shopping at harbortown cos must buy new dress for allied health which is coming up in study weeks we have in ONE WEEK.
oh no and TESTS after study break SIF.
visitng the tav more these days and its all lynh's fault...
i DONT LIE lynh!!! she said i lie.
must start studying...
must buy a new pencil case as well because mine is covered in ink!
okay well yeah IVE DECIDED I'LL POST AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK NOW.
MUST STUDY TMW IN 4 HOUR BREAK...
well...enough ranting... G'BYE.

i hate rheology!!! and viscosity and flocculation crap...

who was that?!

2007-03-15T14:28:00.000+09:00

well just come home from uni
and oddly when i was reversing outta my parking spot?
someone i knew was taking it?!?! well i did get one of the better ones, up the back on the left and only two stairs down...great picture eh? hehehe well yeah and i don tknow who it was?!?! itwas a guy though...wearing a cap...and sunnies?!!??! i have a faint idea that its ben...but i dont think it is?!?!?! ive never seen that car before...so who is it?!?!?! tell me please cos i didnt recognise you and yeah...i'm dumb and blind ^_^

had a work meeting yesterday and boy interesting!! got a free fat moov pen and ego anti age sunscreen but today's lectures were boring and it is getting harder and harder to concentrate and study in the library =( lame eh... going to work today though yayyy money!! pay comes next week again woot

but i just realised today i have to go door knocking for the red cross this sunday otherwise it'll be too late but its going to be hot....so =/ hope i dont FRY woo sunscreeen ftw.

microbio lab yeterday was interesting!! making stains managed to get crystal violet dye all over my hands and then one my slides didnt work out. didnt do the gram negative stain hehe =P but they did look cool!! ahh and the protozoa moving on the hanging drop stain that was freaky!!!
but yeah managed to finish my assgn at like 1230 yesterday and speaking of yesterday

it was JASMINE's 19th!!!! happy birthday jassssssssss XOXO

and well yeah skipped lecture for work meeting, but had to buy petrol on the way home and wtf fuel has just jumped like like 15 cents!?!?!? its like 128 or 129 cents now!?!?!? a few places are 116 but when you go there its like 2 cars lined up behind each station thingo and just takes soooo long =( i hate petrol....but i cbb bussing so maybe...i should make an effort?! hehe well i'm going to GO and chill before work starts..should i-lecture...

i keep hearing the sweet escape on the radio!! and i heard it today again... i should keep a tally of it... i've heard it like at LEAST 20 times when i drive...stupid song...its a good song but AHH its played way too much, i heard it when i started the car just then on the way home from uni, luckily had my mp3 hehe

song of the moment:
fergie- glamorous
give it to me- timbaland nelly furtado and JT
all good things come to an end-nelly furtado

happy birthday to george!!!<3

2007-03-13T20:23:00.000+09:00

first of all. march 11th: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GEORGE-MY CANADIAN COUNTERPART. who is one year older but definitely one year wiser. much wiser than ME. XD love you heaps and HUGS.

ahh well assgn due tmw and i should really start typing it up... AHHHH.
hehehe oh well have to persevere and do it. stupid tut tmw morning...tabletting prac tmw so should try to pay attention...should take berocca tmw...
no wonder why some people drink red bull...
but yeah need a pick me up?
end late too
two labs...
have to go to work team meeting so HM. wonder what time that starts...
need to do my time sheet...

went to caro today during break... i walked from the food court. to coles. to the post office. back to coles cos i remember i forgot to buy phone credit. yes i bet youre asking WHY coles. cos coles = fuel voucher hehe. and i need to fill up soon. ergh...
costly petrol pffttt!!
yeah and THEN i had to walk back to the post office cos i left my shopping there....BAH i'm so dumb sometimes but for those you dont know or remember theyre at each end of carousel. so basically. i walked WAY FAR. like...FAR. yeah you get it...it was kinda like hm...saw natty though...i was like hmmm he looks like natty...it is natty! hahahaha... but yeah got that done and finally got file dividers...was gonna buy tim tams but they'd definitely melt...hot hot day again
i wonder if my car will last tmw...i cant bus though...DAMNIT...hopefully?i'll fill up on the way to work for the meeting...check fuel prices at uni quickly hehe i have to print out some lecture notes anyways cos my printer at home hates me. well it wont print out some diagrams on lecture notes so total waste...but i feel like nowadays i'm putting so much money into uni and getting nothing back...and i've found out that the simple delicious deli is ABSOLUTELY awesome, i love the food from there...thats my food place this year. =) and i really should switch banks soon...maybe during break...

but you know 2 week break is coming up so soon!!! ahhh allied health!! oo and we're going out on that mar 21 saturday!!! woooo and guess what the next day is APRILS FOOL DAY bahahah we're so goonna let loose..WHO CARES. =P but awesome eh ^_^
oh yeah and i'm attempting to buy people presents this year cos i never bought em last year for 18ths which are way more important then 19th... so HM i'm making up for it gradually

songs of the moment
gallery!! ahh its stuck in my head -mario vazquez
give it to me- timbaland JT and nelly furtado
glamorous -fergie
unwritten-natasha beddingfield (this song is STUCK in my head ahh its too catchy)
cassie-long way to go

gwen stefani's the sweet escape is ALWAYS on the radio when i'm driving. ALWAYS.like i swear i've heard it like 20 times!!! like driving home from work it starts or when i reach home it just starts...errr getting so sick of it. =/ help

the 411. HAH.

wth is the bank ripping me off?!?!

2007-03-05T22:25:00.000+09:00

happy birthday lynh!!!! wow youre 20!!! heheh your cake was AWESOMENESS and dw i'm going to get you a present soon. i havent gotten paid yet though so that is LAMEAGE.

i think my bank just ripped me off... i dont understand how i earnt interest and then they took 6 dollars off it for no reason and all it says was like CWHT DR?!?!?!?! WTH IS THAT!?!??! that didnt happen for my month in january...i got more interest that month this for feb?!?! and there's way more money in there?!?! >.> HAH!?!? and they didnt even explain to me?!?! buh i emailed them but 0_o doubt they'll reply.. i 'm thinking of switching to like commonwealth...

bahahahaa TOTALLY cute waiter at south ocean, total coincidence in seeing jamie there, it was PACKED full of azns!!!!!! so busy and crap... so food was kinda crap too...luckily had eye candy to look at ^_^. and yes jamie he was soo cute with anime stayhold hair!! hahaha but yes spent most of that time msging jamie even though it was 3 meteres away with his parents eeating steamboat...it was very noisy though. damn azns. and lotsa stupid kids running around BAH!!! felt like hitting them. annoying brats. but yeah...wasnt that bad...

had my kfc fix but waited AGES FOR IT. stupid public holiday made it really busy!!! had to wwait ages!!! and the guy got embarrassed cos he missed one of my wings hahaha gg, they did seem short staffed though, people were waiting for ages, including mee!!!! but it was worth it =P woo mass wicked wings!!! then watched curse of the golden flower- it was freaking sad =/ everyone like died, i hell predicted good at the start, my sister was like WATCH THE FREAKING MOVIE GEEZ THATS THE WHOLE POINT...gong li is so good at playing evil bitch temptress!! but jay chou looked hella weird...

bah i hate uni!!! if only they had i lecture this year?!!??! its apparent that all the rooms that we do have lectures in dont have the facilities for it!! WTF. its so crap it means we have to go to like each lecture unless they do powerpoint kareoke [ ie. read off the lecture slides] so dont bother going but REALLY it cramps up my fridays...12 to 2..right in the middle of the day...and also thursday mornings!! and afternoons...i could have that day free until week 4 when pharm chem tut's start T.T but NOOO GHEY.

well it was bloody hot today and its going to be worse tmw. 40 today 42 tmw...and i think same for wed too...great time to be spending at uni 8 til 6 ahh...and 4 hour break tmw!! BAH lame..studyz0r in that time!! but yeah all my money's going to FOOD. cbb making lunch anymore... hopefully i can see you ken on friday!!! its like fob bitch time... woooo fun =P good thing theres like air conditioning in all the rooms...think we shall steal another study room and sleep or something instead of studyz0r.... i have no more phone credit too!!! DAMN running out time of free time i still always end up with like 200 minutes still to use and no one to call? so i'm msging people more...hm maybe i should switch my plan...but i shall recharge soon! at coles hahaha so i get a fuel voucher WOOO. the guild diary is so much better this year, was glossing over it in lecture woo 9.50 hoyts tickets!!gg guild!

well ff12 is progressing ^_^ becoming awessomeeee.... sky pirates woo! and like fran is SOO not hot =/

but yea...rant much? =)

on another note

2007-03-04T15:16:00.000+09:00

well i'm bored on a sunday
and craving KFC...is that bad? am i allowed to eat kfc when i'm sick...maybe not BUT
i think i shall venture out and buy some for dinner. later. wicked wings are awesome
there goes the weight i've apparently lost from being sick.
hehehehehheheh...

but you know like curtin sucks the money outta students. like. A LOTTA MONEY.
a absolutely ridiculous amount of money.
uneeded. if they have sooo much money what's with ripping off students! BAHH.
how can guild cost 110 dollars... like before it was with the amenities fee or something...it cant cost that much seriously!!!
working yesterday when i was sick was alright...it was draggy in the morning but it got better later on..the restaurant wasnt THAT busy, it coulda been busier but its weird cos it was moderately busy til like 930 =/ that's 3 and a half hours of running around...like headless chickens you could say... but yeah i got tip money which will probably go to fuel later on.
at least its pay week from the pharmacy...

you know maybe i should stop reading manga, it really makes you think about a lotta things...love. life. death. regret. sadness. extremities... lotsa melancholy in a lotta mangas...so sad... HEH.

i dont think i'm getting any better... maybe its because of the lack of sleep, i'm a very light sleeper and since ive been kicked to the living room couch, i always ALWAYS get woken up at 6 something...for no reason...great. my body cant survive on like 6 hours...its impossible.. so i'm sleeepy most of the time now.. i should clear more crap from my computer...

roast pork.

still sick lahhh wah lao

2007-03-03T22:31:00.000+09:00

ZOMG LIKE FF12 is freaking leet.
hehehehe...yeah well its inclined to be since it did cost 95 dollars...stupid pricey new games,
too bad ff13 is on ps3 BAH its crap ass...stupid ps3...
its funny how theyre all blonde in ff12 its so different XD
well yeah my bro's playing it...cost frankly i cbb but its fun watching cut scenes...

omg spam whats with that outburst on my tagboard...EXPLAIN WOMAN.

but yeah i'm still sick with my sexy husky manly voice going on...
its funny how all the guys i've met are like it sounds SO COOL I LOVE IT KEEP YOUR VOICE THAT WAY its sex. but how about NOOO since it sounds AWFUL and i cant laugh or say some words cos NOTHING comes out. stupid voice...

in the meantime i should be HELL studying for uni. stupid peptides and microbio and pharm chem blah blah BLAH.

enough whinging BYE.
woo tip money woo!

song of the moment- girlfriend.avril lavigne

oooo and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOYOUS WHO TURNED 19 [WOW] ON THE 1ST OF MARCH. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee many blessings!

SIF throw a pen at me

2007-02-27T13:23:00.000+09:00

wth jamie!
wth did i deserve to get a pen thrown at me!!
what's wrong with you!!
just cos the weather was hella crap doesnt mean it was my fault

well anyways uni's still as crappy as ever
crappy lectures
cep max page and his stories
my cough's gone all weird
so in this 7 hour break i've decided to go home to sleep a bit then head back to uni
for another pharm bio lecture

shakkin!

happy 1st birthday

2007-02-25T21:54:00.000+09:00

happy birthday to my blog !

woo this is stolen from stickgirl-sg but i love her work SO
here here

1st birthday

2007-02-25T14:05:00.000+09:00

i think tmw is the first birthday of my blog
how momentous.
well let me just CHECK.
and i'll post tmw haha
but yes i didnt realise
until i decided to change my skin
and had to change my cbox
haha.

happy birthday blog <3

living status report.

2007-02-24T17:58:00.000+09:00

some new news on my living status!
since apparently i have to keep jamie updated...
err hmm i finally was able to get some sleep
voice partially gone, i'm not going to talk now unless i MUST.
which brings me to the note i CANT LAUGH AT THINGS.
what comes out is nothing or me like wheezing....awful T.T and watching ah my goddess isnt helping cos it IS funny... >.>
coughing only coming when i sleep or my throat is irritated
so atm my nose and throat and lungs are dry of mucous AT LAST.
but i'm feeling dizzy for some reason..it only goes away when i lie down...
everyone's going out tonight WITHOUT ME =( sick me
thank you kristy for calling me i'll see you at uni.
i also keep getting blood noses...and my whole body ACHES...

i somehow managed to get to work, got sent home from work for being too sick...slept for AGES that's how tired i was woke up went to go buy some disinfectant spray (woo glen 20) and some instant soup packs and have consumed one when i felt quite nauseous. but sigh i really wanted to go out tonight...it feels weird not working for a week
i'm getting used to sleeping on the couch, its relatively comfy, but i do miss my bed...yes the sick person got kicked out of the room. -_-" how depressing...must consume more soup and vit C
okay enough whinging i'm going to slowly slowly eat some grapes even though i shouldnt and would make me cough even more. eventually.

pillow hermit.

5am

2007-02-23T05:03:00.000+09:00

yes i know its 5am in the morning BUT
this stupid flu yes stupid summer flu pshh
is keeping me up
everytime i TRY to get to sleep
my diaphragm ends up heaving and i start like mass hacking as in cough hack.
its almost like a cough after you throw up
and that's what i feel like now
its like i'm coughing and it HURTING LIKE HELL.
strepsils vaguely help but i think i need to buy ones with an anesthetic in them tmw...
man being sick is expensive
but at least my sister cooked me porridge
atm i'm vaguely contemplating not going to o day
i even have a medical certificate
but i told ben i'd give him a lift
CURSE THIS SICKNESS/
but yeah i can be found at home now always holding a pillow near my chest next to a box of aloe vera tissues which were also unreasonably overpriced but i decided to buy them anyways.

yes i went to the doctor and had to wait for a freaking HOUR before he told me what I ALREADY KNEW. and then told me to get some codral....PSHSSHSHSHSH!@!@#! ffs!!
but at least i have a script for amoxil now, which is valid for a year and sinc ei'm not going to use it since i dont have a bacteria infection i'm going to wait til the next time i get sick. YES.
see its soo weird my parents dont believe me in these things, they think i'm being stupid and not going to the see the doctor is being stupid, i just did it to make em stop complaining but SEE it was viral. antibiotics dont help viruses >.> but noo0o0 and then my mum goes and buys this cough mixture with stuff that makes you throw up. well its an expectorant medication with you know ammonium acetate BP ipecachuana mixture BP and i'm like MUM this stuff'll make me cough even more. she just starts saying i dont know blah blah blah blah BLAH. pshh..so how is this going to work at the end of my career...REALLY.

but yes i also cant sleep because i feel like throwing up...the codral's making me all woozy and dizzy which leads to the feeling i wanna throw up and i started feeling really faint SO I REFUSE TO TAKE IT....so yes. and for some reason i keep on burping...and its not a nice burp its an icky burp, i think the flu's affecting my tummy...bleh...very soon i wont be able to eat anything because i just cant handle it, trying not to make my whole family sick, i have to dispose of all my tissues into a separate plastic bag after my dad scolded me about throwing a whole wad of em into the other bin, and have to cough into a tissue at all times and keep washing my hands
which comes to the question how do those new antiviral kleenex tissues work?! really can someone tell mE. i cant believe uni's starting so soon
at this rate i wont be able to go out on saturday night which is a real pain =/ and i'll be working the whole day too which wont encourage my recovery, but its a change for the past 3 days not actually working, but i'd rather Be working than stuck at home with the freaking flu. BAH.
i'm still contemplating going to UWA guild day tmw
i do wanna sign up for msu and asia but i dont know if my body can take it...
and i'm wondering if i want to pay for the student guild
since its now no longer included int eh uni fees it cos a freaking 110 dollars. i really only used it for the food? now i GUESS its worth it since later on last year i just bought food like everyday... and holidays have made me lazy to make my own lunch so HM. i wonder when the payment's due by... i had to spend money on petrol today though =/ AND the stupid parking permit BAH freaking 90 dollars i cant believe its gone up by so much1?!?!?! i mean its like a 30 % increase?!?!?! wth!?!?! stupid curtin trying to sucker as much money outta the people that attend there...esp international students they pay a HACKload...
but yes i'm not looking forward to uni..especially since i'm this sick now and my minds still in holiday mode ergh...it'll be good to see everyone tmw.. letse hope i dont make them sick
and lets hope at work i DO get sent home wahahah cos at one stage i'll be unreasonably coughing my lungs out and spreading viruses to everyone. including all the people that do want to get cured. maybe i caught it from one of them...bastards...

i should try get some rest... *COUGH*

2007-02-21T22:57:00.000+09:00

far OUT i'm SICK gyaH!H!H!!?!?!?!?!?!
like how lame@!!!
its set it within one day and i'm dying here
coughing my lungs out
cant eat anything cos i end up throwing some of it up or all of it.
and i'm contiunually blowing my nose so its getting kinda sore, need to go buy some aloevera tissues tmw and i think my fever has seriously gotten to me, like i'm blowing outblood vessel bits, but SERIOUSLY this cold has come at the totally worst time EVER. sorry about the intimate do not need to know detail bits but BAH i cant do nothing but complain.!! so there.
just when i really need to work to eearn money AND they NEED me to work. WTH!?!? being stuck at home is not fun
i've been kicked out of my bed onto the sofa bed cos i cant get my sickprone sister sick
and at least it feels like my nose has dried up for now but boo i hope i can sleep PROPERLY tonight. even though its not my real bed, but doctors tmw sigh...and in the meantime i'm snuggled up with a pillow...make that a plural and vicks and a box of tissues.

once again. i HATE being sick.

thinking too deeply again.

2007-02-19T00:16:00.000+09:00

dont you just love when. you plan something with friends. yet it never happens. and you know it wont but you love planning it anyways.
how does that work?

i like how somethings on tv dont make sense. especially cartoons.
say totally spies on in the mornings.
a MATH marathon. involves solving a polynomial and running a mile everytime YOU GET IT RIGHT. and you have to run TWENTY SIX. MILES. to WIN.
wtf?

well grey's anatomy is BACK on. and woo ugly betty!
and well grey's anatomy is still as sad as ever. its so heart breaking...
oo and highlighted how teenagers are having sex so young...just like the STM. but it really is a big problem nowadays... i hope my kids never.EVER turn out like that.
if i even have any. >.>

oh yeahh and i really HATE. late night ads. like who the hell wants the paris freaking hilton video on your freaking PHONE. when you can like. just probably download it from the NET for FREE. helloooo internet access! bluetooth!??! ever heard?!?! bah total crap.

but heyy happy new year.

i have no idea whats going on tmw but hmm... i wanna..do something..sounds exciting..

bye

wooooooooooooooooooooooo.!

2007-02-18T00:01:00.000+09:00

happy belated valentines day!!

and more importantly

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
wooo!
gong xi fa cai! hong bao showerrr!!

well watching the grammys. have fun!

do i have a boyfriend? NO.

2007-02-11T13:12:00.002+09:00

why is it nowadays people keep asking me if i have a boyfriend.
NO PEOPLE NO.
I HAVE NO LIFE.
I WORK EVERY NIGHT.
so there.

but anyways yeah it feels kinda like people keep asking me that question...odd eh?
like when i was working.
my boss's son asked me >.> [and apparently i hesitated! bs!]
like last night.
where martin had to say it like 5 times cos i'm deaf. hahah =P
but the music was loud! kinda crap too...but it was still good! first time!
with my girls cathy in her SKANK clothes and chenelle and spammers~ =D
but yes last night was fun! too bad the rest of the girls werent there
have to make em come next time.
clubbing to the max~

yeeowwww.

2007-02-03T23:19:00.000+09:00

happy birthday ivan.
youre too old to hang with us youngins now.
i like. SHOULD msg you. but my feet hurt too much to go grab my phone. that's in my bag.
heh.

working 9 to 5 then 6 to 10 does that okay~!
bah!

anyways stupid weather...hasnt changed...
i wanna see you spammers =O curse that ailment of yours!

too sleepy to write more.

clover butt

2007-02-01T11:01:00.000+09:00

yay my mum and sister are back from singapore
with new clothes
and bags
for ME!!!
and funny stories haahahha

yes i've got too new ultra cool bags for uni or just to carry my crap around
and a really girly skirt 0_o when was the last time i wore a skirt
and a reeally really girly top to go with it. its FRILLY. wth
oo and NEW SHOES. THEYRE SO AWESOME. sometimes my mum can be totally awesome. then she bought this other top which was ew so my sis took it
and omg she bought me really cool bathers but but...theyre cool..and yellow...but whats the idea
wit the clover hole in the bottoms...its at the back/side of hip. and you know how i get tanned really easy. i'm gonna get a clover shaped tanned spot!! GYAHHH...oh well

outtie.

SORRY KEN.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
18TH THAT IS.

i did leave a sign on msn =/ does that not count! =O well you get a pressie when you come back!

still damn hot

2007-01-29T14:45:00.000+09:00

well its still a heat wave here in perth
what's with the weather!!!
man it rained like a thunderstorm yesterday night! lightning came so close -_-"
i was afraid i'd have to run to my car to get home =/
but luckily it stopped

well now i'm at vincent's house cos of his get together party thing for his birthday
and there's really nothing else to do...
SO.
i stole keegans laptop and decided to BLOG.
bwahaahahaha

i'm happy to say i've advanced in kingdom hearts TWO.
cant wait til my mum and sis get back with stuff for ME. too bad i'm working that day so i wont get to see it until i get home. at like. 9pm. BAH lame

in the meantime i better be more social and socialise instead of blogging.

song of the moment. walk away-paula de anda
showstopper- danity kane

post australia day

2007-01-28T00:56:00.000+09:00

DAMN ITS HOT.

whats with the sudden heat wave all of a sudden!
well for all those who are reading its been freaking like 40 41 degrees for the past two days. and it will be TOMORROW. freaking weather man...gonna die in this heat

well australia day wasnt very exciting for ME but hey. everyone had a good time despite the heat i guess.

i've been attacked by mossies so i'm itching all over my feet
besides that
i stopfull time working next week. i really need a new phone.

drivings kinda fun
apparently my mum and sis have bought my something clothes in sg
SCORE.

tomorrow going for dim sum.
DOUBLE SCORE.

i beat that stupid organization 13 guy demyx after a freaking long time.
TRIPLE SCORE.

okay well..its late zzz...

shine your aussie pride!!

half way through the holidays

2007-01-22T18:11:00.000+09:00

yes yes yes i KNOW i havent blogged in ages but hello! once more.
what was the last thing i wrote...happy new year? bah who cares
well hey its nearly CNY so HAPPY NEW YEAR ONCE AGAIN! BRING ON THE AZNESS!

i've been mass working DAY and NIGHT like EVERYDAY cep mondays.. so thats why i havent seen anyone in like FOREVER. i'm never on msn anymore cos i dont have the chance and with my free time i sleep cos i'm too tired and then just stare at the teevee cos i dont have the energy for much more.

i SHOULD be getting paid. but i forgot when its gonna go into my acc =/ i hope i did it right otherwise i have to wait another fortnight. LAME. but i need that money cos i wanna buy a new phone! nokia 7390! chick powerrr go the pink and gold.

well yes its monday and what an eventful day! oh crap i still got gene's cd... SORRY GENE! and like full delaying passing it to everyone to experience the WONDERS of HEROES which is absolutely awesome show! AHH! i like sundays> so you think you can dance is on teebee and last night was the victoria secret fashion show which i'm sure many many many. men/boys tuned into, but today i got my Ps! hurrah ! fantastic!! stupid licensing centre is sooo slow. and that HPT scared me >.< i thought i was gonna fail but PHEW. anyways hurrah! now i can drive myself to work and my dad wont get annoyed at carting me around the place. from work to work. but now i'm scared, i've never driven alone ^_^" eep. but HEY now i can drive to uni! and i think this year's there's MASS early morning classes meaning i can drive to uni instead of bussing...even though bussing is cheaper and what not...

oh and i gotta haircut. the fringe is a bit short [ yes a fringe jamie you fringe nazi! i wanna watch my sassy girl again] but shrugs hopefully it'll grow out by the time i see everyone again. which is soon! maybe australia day cos no one's working that day! wonder if there's anything on...well i got work the next day at 9 so pfftt. -_-"

yeah i've been working full time 9 to 5 at the pharmacy! YES that's right i took over keegan's old job cos he QUIT and so i got it. wahahaha! i keep forgetting to ask whether im meant to inform the PSWA that i'm doing my hours already =/ oops lah. oh well.. yes and i'm meant to get paid for it!!! bah! and i'm working nights too at my restaurant job still so i'm dead on my feet running from job to job. i figured i at work for kinda HALF A DAY everyday. almost 12 hours. EW eh. the girls at the pharmacy who i work with who are all pretty and eat like NOTHING unlike me say i'm crazy but its only cos i have no life -_-" i wonder what its gonna be like when uni starts back. well in the mean time the weather's heating up! 38 next sunday? well this sunday and i wanna hit the beach agian...have to finish kingdom hearts TWO now. stupid guyBAHHHH i cant beat him damnit and he's pissing me off...stupid organization 13 can go die....

next post soon.

song of the moment: lupe fiasco- daydreaming.

end of another era

2006-12-31T14:18:00.000+09:00

happy new year guys!
party hard!
live it up next year!
good luck.

merry christmas everyone

2006-12-24T23:38:00.000+09:00

go carolling or something yeah?[SILENT NIGHT/ O CHRISTMAS TREE]
yah know my fave xmas song isnt. really a carol song. carol of the bells? sigh can repeatedly listen to its.
me? i'll be working
yes.
even on new years eve
til late probably
but hey
money at least?
people going away soon! bye bye T.T will miss you!!

kingdom hearting atm to keep away the boredom! stupid bosses grrrr....hate them. damn you heartless heartless! must buy KH 2!!

have a happy new year too! <3 many blessings for the new year!!

another late night

2006-12-17T02:01:00.001+09:00

major hot today
stupid summer
too hot.
lame.

well today...well yesterday night now we went to see tdc perform!! the girls did absolutely awesome!! and covered their supposed stuff ups well! but it makes me wanna dance again so i think i'll make an effort next year and join! yayyyyy
congrats to kristy for her scholarship XD weeee.
but yea makes me wanna teach hahaha~ think i'll be an alright teacher? i'm not all that social. and i have a low tolerance. hmm...contemplation sets in...

but yeah! its been a while since i'm 18, buying alcohol for the first time was funny, i still havent gone clubbing but hopefully this coming wednesday going to the leedy? we'll see. every other day i'm working

burswood is such a scam!! where's my pay! i got my pay slip but not my money!? that doesnt make sense..stupid clearance thing...takes ages..and its the weekend so maybe it'll be in my acc by monday. HOPEFULLY.

been content these holidays with scrubs and reading books again! actually bought a ps2 just for the heck of the cheapness it is now. 174 not bad eh but still i kinda wanna ds...hm... i should save up though! yeah save up =D wooo getting fat =( downside awww... wait i'm already fat. let's say. fatter.

driving hours are going very very slowly...man driving's such a hassle... i want my Ps though
far out and since now everytime we go out everyone's in groups of twoies...makes me feel like a damn third wheelieeeeeeee....might as well not go out eh...which makes me wanna get my Ps more so i can just go home instead of imposing. gRRR. either that or i should hang with a new crowd that's less couply.

it was people's birthdays
cathys
bex's
andy's
david's
wenni's
see so many.

i dont like beer =/

listen toooooooooo:
gwen stefani's new album. clubbing beats: yummy/now that you got it.
chill outty couply dance: howie day: collide
trancy dance beats: sneaky sound system: pictures/ i love it
summery: pete murray: lines and all his other songs haha
pop: suddenly i see-KT tunstall
my chemical romance is the hottest band atm. i'm sheeping and going with the flow~

ONE.

2006-11-29T13:35:00.000+08:00

one more dayyyyyy!

well exams are long over!~ and results are out in like 16 days so hopefully...i passed them all -_-" i'd hate to do supps =( stupid exams...can go die...

down south was alright!!!actually..it was great fun! better then i thought it'd be... i really need my Ps!! stupid hours...

i hope i can go clubbing on saturday!

happy birthday to:

tom mann the man! 28th
to althea!!! smartest prettiest best dressed indo chick i know- 30th!! same as me =P
cathyyyyyyyyy~!!! ahh 4th dec!!!

yeah well thats all i can think of atm...tmw's my birthday! psyched? in a way!! thanks to anita and lily who are both gorgeous and who got me a Gorgeous present!!!!!! AHH I love it!!!! i've always wanted one ^_^ !! pretty pretty id bracelet...sigh!! <3 you both heaps!!

byeee.

need i say more

2006-11-21T08:53:00.001+08:00

IVE FINISHED

glory hallelujah!

oh watch this if youre bored! but it'll chew up a lotta bandwidth

the avatar- the last airbender =D

futurama-rama!

2006-11-09T18:27:00.000+08:00

well my hair's gone more reddy?
i think...
well we'll see what people think.

anyways i found this using stumble. =P HAHAHAHAHA.
sigh....i wanna futurama-rama =(

unbalanced

2006-11-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

should be studying but since i'm redying atm screw it
HAHAHAHA check this out

unbalanced

its beginning to get to me

2006-11-05T14:20:00.000+08:00

-let's waste time... chasing cars... around our heads.
i need your grace ...to read my need... to find my own...

well its nearing 2 o clock and i should be going to sleep like i told jamie would.
but just one post wont hurt.

forgot to mention birthdays over the last few days:

2nd november- MY DEAREST ELDEST SISTER. MAY YOU GROW OLDER.OLD.
3rd november- MY DEAREST LITTLE BROTHER. I GAVE YOU MONEY. YOU BETTER TREAT ME GOOD.
oh and there's jas as well!!!! jasmine!!! ahh although she is leaving for melbourne on my birthday [ as bad as you lily!!!]i miss her heaps! god bless in TEE alright!
and god bless me for exams too ^_^

pharm bio write ups are kinda going to plan, just one more to do then time to study for exams!! eeee i cant believe its so close! then it'll be over!!
then planning to get my Ps and go down south and go clubbing/dimsumming/beaching with jamie and fellow friends, celebrate my birthday in great spirits, try not to drink too much [ yes i shall follow our super pharm 100 unit coordinator[ best ever!!!!] shelley's advice -drunk girls are NOT attractive.] and just enjoy my holidays. oh yeah and earn mass money too so i can afford...something!!!

i really want to be in a band

i have to dye my hair...possibly this week.

and far out who's aQ in my tag board!! identify yourself!!~

fave words of the moment now: FAR OUT!!!! yeahh...all of a sudden i'm using it again

fave new manga: hot gimmick. and bleach is starting to ROCK again. but shouldnt be reading manga anyways...ahh help must trap myself in library and study study study...

snow patrol is still in my head... its still making me feel emo-ish/favourite songs now are:
youre all i have
its beginning to get to me
chocolate

-i doubt i'll see you at all during the break.
so maybe thats a good thing.
i hope you have a great holiday.
i'll try make the most of mine.
without you.
thinking of you.

-all this feels strange and untrue, and i wont waste a minute without you.
my bones ache my skin feels cold and i'm getting so tired and so old.
the anger swells in my guts and i wont feel these slices and cuts.
i want so much to open your eyes cos i need you to look into mine.

tell me that you'll open your eyes.
tell me that you'll open your eyes.
tell me that you'll open your eyes.
tell me that you'll open your eyes.

get up get out get away from these flyers
cos they don't get your soul or you're fired
take my hand knot your fingers through mine
and we'll walk from this room for the last time
every minute from this minute now
we can do what we like anywhere
i want so much to open your eyes
cos i need you to look into mine.

tell me that you'll open your eyes...

so what am i meant to feel

2006-11-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

i dont know what's going on in my head...
i thought i forgot about you
but now youre back in my head
in my heart
how can i concentrate
when youre within reach...
you play me obliviously...
maybe cos i try to laugh off the tears forming...
i'm just like that.
not your type..
i give up.
i have to try to hate you.
and love you at the same time...

-for once i want to be the car crash.- snow patrols making me want to bad cry.

waiting on the world to change..

2006-11-02T08:35:00.000+08:00

well as its nearing the end of uni i'm kinda entering stress mode.
6 exams....AHHHH FREAKING HELL.
and i still got quizzes and lab write ups to do
which means i should head to uni like real soon.
blah.

malaysia night was pretty cool at uni =P
mass food and MASS TRANCE. omg!! that was so funny..how is trance malaysia related lah...
oh well!
made some new friends in my course so that was cool ^_^

prac exam was MEANT to be a disaster but in fact it was alright!!
i didnt finish my ointment but at least i got full marks for the rest ^_^
considering the average was 52. happeeeee.

ooo actually bought stuff from market day~~ haha lily that was fun. i'll put up pics of my new earrings later ^_^ hahah piggies and strawberries and capsules!!!(so dedicated to your course wan) but that was awesome!

mehh...okay better head to uni. we should take some last minute pictures on the last day...fool around!

songs to sing:
snow patrol- chasing cars/open your eyes
john mayer-waiting on the world

peeking from under the kitchen tablecloth

2006-10-29T23:08:00.002+08:00

john mayer and pete murray = freaking leet pwnage sweetness
.yeah their performance was unbelievable.!

work was crap though. i broke stuff. why am i so clumsy. and dumb.

i gotta test tmw... sigh...

for my haircut- i want crazy sex hair!!! so like mass layers. and fringeness? sorry jamie- i look too lame with a long fringe.

-sitting in the corner crying while everyone else is having fun.

damn those pretty girls in their pretty dresses.

2006-10-29T13:11:00.000+08:00

just finishing off my counselling assignment atm
but wanna read more manga-
i had a point but now i forgot.... oh well

manga obsessed with atm is love celeb!
doesnt he look so cute. yes i know its just manga.

oh oh and mai otome's getting good too ^_^

haha leet meister costumes XD

okay anyways back to assgning. i got work soon too =/ laters

albino black sheep drum machine.

did bad in my pharm test...

2006-10-28T16:16:00.000+08:00

oh well. T.T

i'm really not that upset =/ and i should be i guess?
yeah i really screwed up calculations so that brought my mark down really really lowwwwwness...

well at least the test yesterday wasnt so bad, it was such beach weather ^_^

now its a saturday afternoon and after going shopping with my mum and big sis
i'm watching bleach-catching up! 98 to 100

i need new flats, my fave white ones are wearing out =/

i got pains havent taken my panadol

have to finish my counselling

have to still dye my hair and cut it ... T.T

so sleepy...shall sleep soon.

rararara...

song of the moment: yui rolling star

bah just SHUT UP.

2006-10-25T19:49:00.000+08:00

everyone keeps talking about the test!!!
just shut up!!!!
SHUT UP!!!!
even the mention of one of the questions i feel depressed!!!
BAH.
stop it!!
stupid!!
really!!
at one of these moments
you wish you had a real big hammer to hit people to shut them up.
OR
masking tape
which you could wrap around and around
and around
and around and
aroundddddddd
their pie hole mouth.

SHUT UP.

at least until results come out

song of the moment! bob evans- nowhere without you.

25 to go.

2006-10-24T16:28:00.000+08:00

hmmm...more like 24.5 hrs since i kinda did...25 min yesterday whilst driving to get dindin~
but yes if you have not caught on. I PASSED XD
estaticness!
luckyyyy i guess considering i havent driven around kelmscott/armadale in my life =/ stupid hills
stupid rough roads
stupid 60 km/hr limit roads.
yeahh...all stupid...
but yeahhh barely passed on signalling- but my test instructor [STEVE aka good person] told me what i was doing slightly wrong =P he so nice wan.
but YEAH I PASSED! finally!!!
hmm....25 hours....if i can i'll fake half =/ i mean.. i'll drive the full 25! *shifty EYES*

well forgot to say

HAPPY PINK RIBBON DAY

AND MOST IMPORTANTLY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUMMY DEAR.

lol mock prac today was CRAP. stupid propranolol beta blocker....and stupid lotion!! sif!! oh well... time to study for assessment pharm test tmw 0_o panic mode. blah. where's my scientific calculator! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

-sweet sweet freedom.

eeeeeeee

2006-10-23T10:29:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna fail my driving test
in like...1 HOUR HELP.
bah stupid licensing centre
stupid kelmscott T.T

okay and then i come home and go to uni T.T

bah.

i've retemplated but...hmmmm....i'll fix stuff up later.

thunderstorms

2006-10-22T01:19:00.000+08:00

its too hot to sleep.
luckily rain is on the way
gonna cool the whole place down
good.
then sunny and low temps on monday and tuesday
hope the weather forecasters are right
in reading the ...weather?.
sometimes they are just so off.
eg. it shall rain today and be really cold so rug up- outcome: 28 degrees fine sunny and HOT.
it has happened vice versa too.

well me thinks its time to change my blog template
kinda getting bored with this one.
well...i should be studying for MASS TESTS/EXAMS. but...?
someone spark me into study mode.

-and as i step outside
a blow to the head
blood flows and the hail falls
why does the rain hurt so bad?
shield me from the cold
the wind
help me find the path home.

OTL.........

2006-10-20T10:02:00.000+08:00

dying under the workload.
and i cant even DO some of it cos it requires things that arent accessible at this point in time.
WHY.

in the meantime
i wanna learn canto
but i dont see why i shouldnt learn chinese first
would be easier
right?
help lah...
i wanna go to hongkong...
and spend all my money..
which i have none atm...

OTL.

hiatus

2006-10-17T18:29:00.000+08:00

well my parents have come back!
and i have discovered a new site for mass azn music dl =)
mp3 crashed so study was not on the calendar on saturday- yes. it kept screwing up so had to reload
went to anita's birthday thing! and dimsum with my sister and mum which was very fufilling
forgotten how fun kareoking is sigh!
had to study for human bioooo
paid off today got 23/25 =) better than i expected! guessing this time helped
lab today was alright
but i'm so tired....dont know why lah...help?
well back to mass dling azn music
oh oh oh and i saw the breakfast club at the library today!! AHH I LOVE THAT MOVIE. the first time i watched that was at like 2 in the morning and i HAD NO IDEA what movie it was. what it was about or even the title...its one of those movies that defines our generation.
have to borrow tt out! cos it comes with sixteen candles and i wanna see that... oh oh and jamieeee let me watch my sassy girl =( please
my earphones broke so had to be new ones =( first ones i bought were CRAP as so i just bought some other ones 0_O hahaha waste of money i know but bleh my brother can have them
exams are coming up! gonna dieeeeee.... jiu ming arrhhhh OTL

-bus rides.

stumble!

2006-10-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

yes! another productive wednesday and we were stumble-ing on firefox
that's me and gene-elmo and keegs =P ben was just looking
and we found one of the best blogs ! its soo sick check it out in my links! cant believe how he did it

anyways its gonna be a crappy weekends
i got so much to do: homework that is
pharm bio presentation
chem mid semester
so that means
less sleep
T.T

help me.

after monday i'm gonna REEEEELAX. wait. make that tuesday. cos i sitll have to do my session 8 writeups and my chem tut questions. someone let me copy >=(

and i screwed my headphones! BAH need new ones T.T i guess all that knocking around didnt do anygood....koss! elmo help

carpe diem! you looked hot in it!

2006-10-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

hahah guess where that line is from!
and this line might help:"youre a virgin that cant drive""..that was way harsh"
well yeah unis back! BAH
and my sickness still haunts me! i should take my meds =O crap yeah better do that now...
in any case i've still got the ICKY smell of wool ointments apf in my nose >< need coffee beans or somethin to drown it out! BAH
well at least i caught up in manga
but i got mass work to do
lucky pharm lectures start at 10 now =D
feeel like dancinggg!!
had spams 18th! to check out photos go on friendster search me up
well yeah i'm outtie.

sick

2006-09-28T00:30:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna use pics to depict my current status.

yeah. i googled up cold. and this is the first relating picture i found . giant microbe of a COLD virus.it may look cute. but trust me on this one. its deadlier than a swarm of angry bees! wasps even! i dont know how that comparison works but yes! curse you cute lil cold representation!

so now i'm like this
yeah. cep its more like HACK HACK HACK i'm choking on my own spewtum. yeah great word aint it. and its random spasm attacks now, so when i least expect it...BAM. its like a ninja freak.

and now finally atm i'm still not feeling very well but before it was like this

actually worse than this. i think. but looking at him he looks pretty down eh.... OTL. poor guy...at least you dont have random spastic cough attacks!!!!

in the meantime i should be doing mass work...but sickness has delayed such. i plan to start going through my speech tmw but maybe that wont happen either...amoxycillin to the rescue! thanks to the fat doctor who i went to and said i had spots on my tonsils and made me close the door cos he was too fat to get up and do it himself >.> and charged 30 dollars for like 1 min. yeah i'm feeling spiteful...fat doctor. GREAT EXAMPLE YOU ARE.

in the meantime i need a haircut i was kinda thinking of something like this

aww this kinda makes me miss my black hair...pshh yeah means i have to dye it again....red this time i think *ponder ponder*

or this

i like her fringe.... too bad it never turns out like that! pshh...

oh well....later yeah. first to overcome this ailing sickness of mine! BAH.

-thebride>crazy 88.

tied together by a thin red wire

2006-09-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

there's this weird jap movie on and its somehow compelling many weird jap movies that are non horror... they do make you think though...even though they are random

its the start of a week break and i'm starting to think of what to do
pharmbio lab write ups and speech
chem mid sem
pharm lab write ups and calcs and dose check assgn
pharm prac counselling assgn
chem quiz
math tut questions
human bio...human bio test coming up too again...
mass work

i feel like tuesday should be movie day~ i wanna see devil wears prada...who's coming!

it was 3 boys in a row's bdays
vinnie's 19
freds 20
kavs 21

a belated happy birthday to all you three men who are now officially. men.

and i think two girls birthdays are coming up too:
samantha-SPAM!!!!!!! 28th
megan 30th

starting to save up but i want so many things. i wanna eagles scarf [WE'RE IN THE GRAND FINALS BABY~ LEGENDS ROCK ON!], this dress from myers which has probably already been sold, and make up and new flats and new jeans and a change in hairstyle-red? different fringe?...sheesh expensive eh but i should save up i need a car...

i think i'm getting sick...throats been infected for 3 days and now i'm coughing up ...damn sickness...well the weather's warming up so thats good, it was a good sunny day today, total beach weather! i cant wait til summer comes!

the royal show's coming into town, so is bry! haha sweet but i'd rather pick bry than royal show which just SUCKS the money out of you total waste.

i wish people in this world were nicer...maybe we all just need some sleep.

bleach catchup: theyre finally in hueco mundo lets hope they dont get their butts kicked by the espada*

need some new music but my mp3s full =/ nuuuuuu =( ah well

lets hope when i visit UWA this week i see people neh

out.

i'm bringing sexy BACK.

2006-09-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

man jamie. i cant believe you got that stuck in my head~!!!!

well its been a hectic week! and i still got mass homework but i'm putting it off..shh.
just maths tut qs chem tut qs labelling assgn and mid sem test for maths...yeah =)
well first off first off

MSU BALL WAS AWESOME. =) and a lotta people agree w me that it was so much better than our year 12 one. why? i dont know ...maybe cos the venue seemed a bit better food was nicer, more people that we know...everyone looked HOT...there was RNB [bump and grind] and so many memorable moments...i wanna another one =) cant wait lah
after it i weeshed to high heaven i was 18 so i could go clubbing. but. no. shrugs
i would stick up photos...but that takes time and i should be sleeping to wake up at 630 tmw

ahh fredino's 18th party! sigh! what a blast~ its good to see everyone just chilling out and having a good time and dancing to crazy 90s music. it was so odd how i feel like photo taking then...but not at MSU -_-" but yes! i shall get fredino a present soon in my break! i have money from work! plus tips which i got paid today! i wanna save up for something though, some things i want righ tnow are:
dress from myers-140
sony cybershot camera [i hate my camera and hui concurs]
or portable speakers which i can carry around but have deaf bass =) which mean EX. sigh!
once again i have photos..but just check em out friendster *thumbs up*
thanks for picking me up and driving me home elmo!!! you rock my world

oh and WOOOOO eagles!!!!! totally pwned the wbulldogs BAHAHAHAHA. suxzors to be YOU.
and also the dockers!!! kicked melbournes ass righteously* everyone's developing footy fever=o

well thats about it i might add stuff later

songs of the moment: RNB STINT. after msu haha
lie about us- avant ft nicole scherzinger
come to me -p diddy ft nicole scherzinger
get low =P haha lily
do it to it- cherish (remix is better =p]
good looking out- milaJ. ft marque houston
ne-yo.!

bleach243- AHHH ISHIDA YOU LEETZOR. and chad =/ but i like ishida's new bow. SWEET ASS 1200 consecutive shots. pwnage to the MAX.

birth of a new blog era

2006-09-12T22:32:00.000+08:00

hahah YAY dino's got a blog.
which i just found out by scrolling down my msn list (which has been screwing up lately)
forgot to mention it was really sad that peter brock died =( another legend passes
and OH WTH the eagles game stupid sydney swans!!! What the Freak.! by one measly point cos of the dodgy goal BAH. FFS.!!
well yeah i'm just gonna add dino to my list of bloggers.
lol to dino:
sorry i couldnt come to your party gathering. i'll make it this saturday for a bit ^_^ promise! even if i dont there's the ball! on thursday! eep!! what does your dress look like!
lol at that hat thing bahahahah your sister owned you good. but my sincere condolences about the hat not growing and about the outburst of sad emooooo-tion.
better get back to my tedious assgn.

when everything goes okay. then it turns to shit.

2006-09-09T01:55:00.000+08:00

it was so sudden. it hasnt hit me yet.
i dont want it to- crying really makes you tired. you just wanna sleep after.
i remember i always couldnt cry at the important things. it'd always be really really lame stupid small things. i think now. just thinking of things... the tears.. like wheni think of "paint the silence" it makes me want to cry almost. it reminds me of marissa and ryan [OC] and how it was sad. and how sad i was back then...
dont you hate days like those? well...this?

today wasnt all so bad. beside me taking apparently 45 min to shop for jewellry. now i'm poor. once again.but i got more bling rings.

wasted my night watching movies on teevee. needed to desensitize myself even more cos right now...yeah. but theyre showing that weird jap movie on sbs again~

took a late late shower. now just...out of it.? and listening to emo music isnt helping...

we were so different. i'm so not a girl that he'd like. its inevitable. i guess cory is right.. i probably was too attached to not want more. but why is it still so hard. hmm...no i guess its for the better.i dont feel like going anymore. but i guess it'll be alright in the end i hope. so stupid. so so so so stupid. it'll be okay...just not right now. i guess i'm more angry than anything. but at the same time i wanna laugh. cry. and forget about the whole thing.feeling helpless brings out the monster in you. i wanted something more...but at the same time i knew it wouldnt come? crazy fool. my ears are still ringing. if i'm quiet tell me...i need to put on my happy face. not for you. for me. i guess i'll be wearing more than one mask to MSU.

on a side note: jay chou's new album is out! woooo

ears are absorbing emo music at 2 in the morning:
cute is what we aim for- newport living/the curse of curves. RISQUE.
panic at the disco- but its better if we do.

depressing status.

great romance. fallout boy>>>>

2006-09-04T16:56:00.000+08:00

a beautiful girl can make you dizzy.
like you been drinking jack and coke all morning.
she can make you feel high.
full of single greatest commodity known to man.
promise.
promise of a better day.
promise of a greater hope.
promise of a new tomorrow.
this particular aura.
can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl.
in her smile.
and in her soul.
and the way she makes every rotten little thingabout life seems like its gonna be okay.

sigh* -a little less sixteen candles, a little more touch on me

*i confess. i messed up droppin i'm sorry like youre still around.
and i know youre dressed up hey kid you'll never leave this town.
cos youre just the girl all the boys wanna dance with and i'm just the boy whose had too many chances.

i'm slipping on your folks borge again dreaming
she said she said she said
why dont you just drop dead

i dont blame you for being you
but you came blame me for hating it
so say what are you waiting for
kiss her
kiss her
i set my clocks early cos i know i'm always late.

at the forefront of technology

2006-09-02T10:56:00.001+08:00

japanese people.
need i say more.
its well known japanese people have EVERYTHING. and i mean EVERYHTING in vending
machines. hot sake. (available to all those lil kiddies out there who want a hot drink while
waiting for the train.) and just recently i found out...THEY HAVE MANICURE MACHINES.
10 minutes and wa lah! your nails are done! and theyre removable! WOW.like. WOW.
and you can pay for all of this -if you dont have any coinage or cash with you- with your
mobile phone. really.

listen to fall out boy!! all of you!!
song of the moment- grand theft autumn.

approaching a dreaded month

2006-08-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

of birthdays!

as i am on my break at the moment and getting poorer by the day due to MSU ball- i wonder how i am going to supply mass presents to mass birthday people in this month.

in the beginning:

4th dianas
5th allans
6th graces
7th bryans!

i think esther's is coming up too =O

happy 18th to you all!! may you embrace all your 18th privileges fully!

oh and here's my mask. take no note of the picture of it being taken on my crotch. ironically it was the best picture with the best light =) i need to return some things though cos i thought i needed paint. but i dont! so i wonder if i can....hm

thanks to elmo who cartered me around in his yellow hatchback honda today! i really really REALLY love craft shops.

they opened new stores in gc!!
moo-like il gelato but sells premium yoghurt, quite tasty and those you want an alternative
who wouldnt wanna try something with a cow as their logo

craft shop! wooo I LOVE CRAFT SHOPS

and many other shops have altered! like the lotto stand outside myers. also kmart have changed their whole outlay of the store

post out. =O

happy birthday to felicity!

2006-08-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

sigh another long day!
at least we curtin peeps get a week off!
well now going to the MSU ball- i need to find a dress maker =( someone! help!
had work when i wasnt meant to work and sheesh people eat way late =/
happy birthday to felcity! 18th- thanks for inviting me to your party~

i'm so sleepy.

kiss me- sixpence none the richer*

blessings from the past.

at high heights

2006-08-23T19:00:00.000+08:00

he said yes.

congrats to samantha! who has been converted to the dark side of blogging.

he said yes.!

-blowing things out of proportion!

def cuts

2006-08-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

its been a while

only got reminded of my blog cos elmo commented that i havent blogged in a while
so here goes

uni's back on. and it blows.
doing our own labels for lab is really confusing!=hard work!!
and more work every week and BAH it just....yeah
at least no hb lectures for the next three weeks which kinda is a good thing but we miss out on the reproductive system and damien hewitt does it!!! he's one of the best lecturers ever! so we might just tag along fo rthe fun of it.haha.
i should be studying for human bio or doing my labelling assgn~ but ....tmw ^_^

work has certainly gotten better- barely get scolded anymore and i get cakes and stuff sometimes ~

this weeks' been full of ups and downs.
i got my iriver e10!! its so pretty!!<3 but the software's a nightmare. i haaaaate it!! ARGH kept getting me angry!! and it still does!!!
but its permanently with me from the moment i wake up t o the moment i sleepeth.
<3<3

went kareoking with cory and co- eric and chen and cory's uni friends which was really cool! should really form a boy band + one chick thing ^_^ haha cory thanks for paying for my bit, even though you were kinda forced to... but yay lovegety to remember that day?

i lost my lab coat. dnt ask me how, but i dont know where it is...my sister thinks some petty indo scab chick has it hahaha!! but yeah... i want it back =( now kevin= my SAVIOUR is giving me his spare one who has too short sleeves for him hahahaha. thanks kevin.

i booked my hb tests at the wrong week =( so that really depressed my on wednesday night when i found out, luckily one of the CAA team (dave!) yeah he deserves that exclamation mark was nice enough to fix it for me ^_^ WOO. he rocks. another down and high thing~

yeah... well i'm off to read my book. just thought i'd... you know....BYE.

oh and lastly!

though this week has been full of ups and downs the highs have kept me alive. even though they occurred due to my lows.i've lost something but in return i got something that belonged to someone who by now i guess. i truly am ..kinda...'obsessed' with. in a good way of course.i thought i was over it. but as uni resumed ...and as i saw him for the first time in a long time. as he smiled his smile...then... i'm one of those people whose most interested in the thing they show the least interest in. as he tricks me into turning around the wrong way with a tap of the shoulder. teasing me blatantly. asking why i'm dressed up. mentioning that i look nice. mentioning that he thought i didnt notice him... at that moment, if i was certain he felt the same way i would have with no restraint objected it such a comment with as much objection as one can muster at such a comment made o so wrongly.sitting on the bus separately but sitting together at uni. connected by melodies whilst trying to concentrate on words of wisdom in class. trying to learn less important tricks. sleight of hand. exchanging words over pathways of electricity, saying more words than in person. i hope he says yes, but we'll see. if not...i'm not getting my hopes up.

in the early hours of the morning. talking to a friend about such obsessions (including the general topic of gangsters) an important question was asked. why. why him? what's so great about him?....i could not give an exact reply. what's so great about him?...i'm not exactly sure...but its definitely something. there's something there. just beyond his smile. its so addictive.

>this is my territory
>my time for glory
>if you wanna be on top
>you gotta let go*...

readjustment

2006-07-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

soooo over these holidays i've managed to accomplish many a triumph and many a failed.triumph. including screwing up my body clock entirely. but i never got used to the early starts at 6 something for uni. save me this sem.

birthday shout outs.
happy birthday sansan- hell nerd girl international student who i didnt know is older than me by two years 0_o. twas 3rd of july.
happy birthday kristy!youre 18 and more gorgeous than ever. i hope you appreciate the thought of the things we got you. one reason-to share the love of high school musical. and second the glo sticks are for clubbing needs. youre party was quite awesome but not as awesome as you. twas 11 july.
and then now to ben who is having his birthday party. on his birthday! well one of them. twill be 29 july.

the boys from sg should be heading down under soon from the equatorial area above thereabouts. hope they have fun because i'd doubt i'll see em with uni work constantly assaulting me with work and bombarding me with ridiculous times, making me stay at uni from the early mornings to the late evenings.

russell peters is coming to perth! i find out. i think there's a show QUITE soon but i'm not sure if its sold out. or the one in dec is the one that is sold out or BLAHBLAHBLAH. its confusing! i might call them up tomorrow to ask~ its good to get tickets early. even though its ...about 4 months in advance. good seats take good planning. or lotsa money for platinum membership. but since i dont have the latter i'll opt for the first option.

got a new computer! had to transfer everything to this which took...a long time. as approximated. but its good to have a mega screen now though it does feel weird with a normal keyboard instead of a laptop one. but having the mega space is a reeeeeelief.

my little brother has gotten to start wc3. may the clouds cave in and the oceans rise to drown us all. what have i become! though i say i keep failing the campaign! haha its a sign. hopefully i'll get somewhat better at it but i refuse to do it unless my brother helps me.

i really want a car. sigh. thanks for letting me drive your NEW honda civic sam! sigh i cant believe you let me drive it ^_^ it was a memorable experience~ lets hope i do get my license soon. oh and thanks to andy for dropping me home! in his new celica! which surprised me by being so wide~ but the interior is h0t. and with leet driving skills total pwnage. sex to the maX. take me driving again!!

besides reading a lot of books these holidays have been quite uneventful. just quality time spent with friends. my mummy. sleeping in late. spending money on....goodness know what and its all about to end in a week. o day is on thursday, i'm not sure when it starts or ends but hopefully it wont be as boring as last time. it'll be good to see everyone again and see how everyone went with exams!i think i have to go on friday too....ergh

well i'm meant to go to UWA tmw to see some people considering i dont have uni. so i better go sleep.

right.

night.

with deepest sympathy.

2006-07-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

wow its been a while

well holidays have consisted of waking up late. staying up late. and reading...lotsa reading..
uni results are better than i expected SO yay.
and no. not a squeed.
i somehow managed to nearly get jordan killed today.
sorry.
just saw the opportunity and ran for it.
oh well at least you didnt die. =)
good good.
need money for a pair of sneakers i want...but dont really need.
bought some new clothes.
need an occasion to wear a dress to.
i haven't seen a lotta people over these holidays so i miss a lot of people.
see you when uni begins.
i guess...

-thinking of you in your time of sorrow...

who's the bitchh nooowwwwww

2006-07-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

hahah visited my kor's house XD man all the way in the ghetto
tight.
watched honey agn and it inspired me to do up some sick moves.
righteous

well working all week
apparently my blog's hard to read now. WHY?!?? explain 0_o
well failed my driving test FFS.
borrowed mass books today to occupy my time so will read until they all readd.
eyeshield 21-leet atm.
today at the library lo and behold azness to the max. one girl with the willo leavers jumper quoting ^_^"
OF ALL THINGS. ^_^. WHO PUTS THAT ON THEIR JUMPER.
lol and to jordan. STOP WATCHING PASSIONS(the lamest lame lame crap soapie there could ever be- i mean. wth whoooo climbs into their bed and...dream about sexxing each other when theyre nude. in the same. bed. AND THEY START MAKING OUT IN THEIR FREAKING SLEEP, HOW THE HELL CAN YOU DO THAT. MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE. WHILE YOURE STILL SLEEPING.PLEASE.)

so sleepy..night.

what a fucking legend you are.

2006-07-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

Aaron AKA george:
why is mish so awesome? only the poets can say.... but i need to sleep, so i wish you a great day!

bahaha george i WEESH i was as awesome as you think i am but honestly i'm not that great ^_^

caught up on manga today-
bleach is already too awesome to comprehend-its reaching the 1337 limit and going BEYOND.
eyeshield 21- OMFG. LEET TO THE MAX. there's this huge gap between chapters i need to fill in cos the server doesnt have em. need another manga site! someone give em to me!!!!!!!
HIRUMA IS LEGENDARY BEYOND BELIEF. bless him and his lil black book of blackmail and his guns. SENAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA FFS. need i say more.
AND RIKU!!!!! *faint*
ahhh need it need it T.T shaman king too!!!!

-continuing to be mystified by the leet boundaries of manga greatness.

oh god...i feel sick.

2006-07-03T11:57:00.000+08:00

well its been a week and a few things have happened.
got my hair cut and dyed it myself, did it alright, better than i expected.
went movies-tokyo drift wasnt THAT bad. i must admit that han reminded me of jay. somewhat not hot but appealling cos of their attitude and air. sigh.
i wanna bf with a hot car =(
i still withstand with all the couples around that are making me say the above statement diana and fred get top spot. then like...ceazer and yvonne who have been together since...time beGAN.

went for dimsum!! hahah fun =P
hehe matt's (kors) bday party was quite interesting. got tipsy and went all red but its alright =P
i have no tolerance for alcohol. realise that vodka cruisers taste funny =S smirnoffs are alright. matt's fault! he put it in my hand! what else was i meant to do with it haha...
lol cant believe they got you FHM top 100 hot women thing-woo jess alba #1- who else would it be!!
went for a ride in adrian's fixed car =P woo speeding to the bottle shop but it was closed ><" only 10pm and it was closed! on a saturday night! ffs!!
well that was mildly fun
too bad i'm working all week this week wed to sun to go out ><"
hm but my driving test is this week!!! lets hope i pass. but i get car sick if i drive for too long- even one hour's BAH. i hate it!!how am i gonna last two hours.....bleh

well i've changed my blog skin!!had to merge my old one and the new one from do the dew* took me ages T.T lol the lil pic in the corner's cute but there's hitsugaya!!!!<3<3<3 even though he's getting owned atm by arrancar i still heart him.. ^_^i really need sleep...*yawn*
i should start saving up for something. car. holiday. start saving big!! it'll be worth it in the end

-waiting for my head to stop spinning after you kiss me.

crazy chicken dance

2006-06-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

"I'm the girl who has a lotta friends who are guys, not the girl who has a lotta boyfriends."

thats me.
oh miss paltrow in a fat suit. you defined me to the bone.

everytime i watch grey's anatomy. that dreaded feeling of pain and angst from committing to something you shouldnt in love rears its ugly head and shouts "boo. i'm still here."trying to beat it down takes all your energy. and still its coughing up blood. "is that all you got?" a million shots to the head. and still alive.
i still love it though. oh and scrubs.

i'm getting my hair dyed soon. cut before. finally.
australia's doing a good job against italy atm. but its only the beginning of the second half. lets hope they kick. italy. ass. its ironic cos italy's the shape of a boot....yeah. schwarzer is such a legend. chipperfield cahill emerton (who isnt playing tonight unfortunately) moore kewell (poor boy)breschiano all legends. i was really upset when south korea didnt get in!! the red army are legends to the max. the best supporters a team could ever have. really upset when they didnt get in =( and the ref was BAH crap as. totally got the offside thing wrong!!GRR. enough venting.
woo italy down to 10 =P
i watched sin city today. best movie i've seen in ages. life like a comic book. makes you wonder...
the laptop is still down. i'm suffocating! =) good night.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.!

2006-06-23T18:08:00.000+08:00

exams are over.
EXAMS ARE OVER.
OMG.
now a month break.....

well just lyrics i thought of in the shower yesterday. i've put a tune to it...but its too...avril lavigne= ew. i'll change it later but for now:

kissed me on the cheek
walked me to my car
never went as far
as a one night stand

called me the next day
trying to find a way
if we could meet up on saturday

but what i didnt know
is you'd bring me to your show
and sing to me
sing to me... you swept me off my feet.

OH PS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!! YOURE 18. AND YOU STILL CANT DYE YOUR HAIR BECAUSE OF YOUR MUMMY. how nonsensical. just another weird thing in this world. thanks for coming shopping with me today!

flacked up.

2006-06-22T14:18:00.000+08:00

sitting on this bench
staring at that fence.

as the odd passerby
saluted to say hi.

and he said to me.
enigmatically.

emphatically.
dont you love me?

with a tear shining bright.
in the fading sunlight.

we parted.
with a kiss.

and said goodbye...

cracked lips.

2006-06-18T00:02:00.000+08:00

thanks huipea.

i think its from this grey's anatomy song.
but i replaced the words with my own. i think....but yeah its sweet isnt it.
yay new series starts on monday. unfortunately i still have exams on my agenda.
kiss my thumb for luck*

wait for the stars to fall.
wait for the sun to thaw.
and i will wait with you.
if you will wait for me...

fall fall fall.
fall into my arms..and collapse.
oh oh oh suppose we'll never know.

-oh you've been on my mind. babe you've been on my mind... -jebediah's lead singer's...song. on the radio atm.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KOR.

2006-06-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KOR. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 i think thats 18 hearts. well ^_^ happy birthday!! you know i love you heaps!! study hard for your exam tmw ~~this is for matt btw ^_^ for all of you who dont know who i'm implying hehe
15th of june!

well my next exam in on wed. 75% MC and 25% short answer. and the next on on friday. all MC. lol whats with this!! che... i wanna end exams nowwww
well my week so far has been uneventful besides exams. i met this cute guy yest and kristy might know hahaha. and spent today watching NCIS the whole day! back to studying tmw~
i cant get those adidas superstars asthey are guys shoes. ie. their smallest is still too big T.T whatdiscrimination!!! see guys get all the coolest things =(
i've been eating way too much so i decided to work out a bit today ~ felt good!
cory let me access your blog!!! i wanna read your emo ness!! share the love and to andy: sif have a party without me =( but i do need to get my haircut!! bring me to the azn place where they cut azn hair good! seriously its only done good overseas at a cheap price =( sigh
the goodness of good ol asia.
good on the socceroos for winning 3-1 to japan. i wanted japaan to win though lol ^_^" but yeah they really need to get their defence up for brazil!! or they gonna get steamrollered.
and good on the eagles for coming back from like 35-45 points back!! in the last two matches to win!! wooo go eagles!
i wanna dress by "story by tang" so pretty ^_^ go christine tang
and oo yay tom!! i found him1!!! dave genat the hot hot hot model from scotch college! but i forgot he was that old and married hehehe :P he's hot.
i'm still without the laptop, no bleach ARGHGHGHGHGHGH> yeah it blows.

songs of the moment: yellowcard- twoweeks from twenty. rough landing holly.
greenday-whatsername
teddy gaiger-for you i will (confidence)
field mob ft ciara-so what
eskimo joe-black fingernails red wine
pharrell- number 1
the veronicas!! ahhh!!
i cant beleive paris hilton released a song. its so gonna be remixed to an even trasheir version techno dance crap.

wait for the stars to fall.
wait for the sun to thaw.
and i will wait with you.

sunshine in june-*

2006-06-09T19:18:00.000+08:00

it has been one week since i last saw him.
i feel like a withering flower without his smile.
riding the bus home in the dark... where has the sunshine in june gone?

exams start on monday. tues.wed. why are exams at 645pm at night. its really. nonsensical.
thanks for a great day yesterday: cory, matt, justin, ben, hui, ken and nice meeting you crystal and josh, also seeing kenneth and tash
-bought new jeans, boots, jacket, and an epilator. its so scary. and now i'm poor.
and thanks for a entertaining day today: jordan(hacking into my msn) who i think is still at uni (really uni would really SUCK without you-to the max [oooo and poor debs]) and cory- who had crazy hair today- i want those adidas boston superstars jordan!
ive been feeling really tired for the past two days... i think its to do with the cold but otherwise... i feel really dead/dizzy... and no it wasnt the chicken alright.
but the next week or so will consists of mass study... goodbye.. i'm gonna be missing in second year so i might as well make the most of it now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:
june eighth

kiran: youre 19 and gorgeous as ever!
chris: always a good mate when i see him! happy 18th!

june 10th
happy birthday keegan, youre such a legend and will continue to be so

-dizzy chicken. signing off.

PS kor i will not beat up that 15 year old who is trying to hit on you... just...yeah *shrug*x3

thud thud thud

2006-06-02T19:43:00.000+08:00

its the end of semester 2 june 2006.
i feel somewhat relieved as everyone should.
but exams are looming and i feel like i must start studying...what else is there to do?
there's nothing to do tonight, if only i could stay out late! argh! curses
well its been such a long day. waking up to a lightening sky with freezing temperatures really puts you in a mood.
i really do feel like a loner sometimes. hanging with a big bunch of guys is great, but really... I DO NOT BELONG. thanks to jordan who always manages to amuse me nowadays! i'm sorry jordan i'm using you, putting up with my tomboyness and girly side [totally] hehe but you brighten up my day ^_^" like today [uni is really like an old chinese guy- taking all your money and leaving you with nothing, really you should get your 5 bucks back] oo i still have to cut your hair X_x cant be that hard eh...i hope
at least i did good on my pharm test- cant believe the results were out already! sigh at least that some relief but yes going to buy SubwayDC jeans tmw ^_^ hope theyre still there
finally got a new printer! after weeks of nagging how the printer did not print out my lecture notes and wasting funds at uni it scans too! ahh finally i should print out the 2005 chem exam
-yesterday was good! it was fun hanging with you kor! [i still dont know what market failure is] and kez[ great seeing you darling] and mr happy [andy] who i'll hopefully go shopping with tomorrow
i munted up my thumb. me and my pedantic ways
and so begins study week...

nonetheless- the last bus ride...
as the sun was coming down, the weather getting colder, as we were getting on the bus, i'm glad i sat next to him. to talk to him one last time. to see his smile. to see him react as slow as he does. to know i'm going to ask him questions. to tell him that i dont see him that often. implying that i should. but nonetheless how much good did it do... i did tell him to smile more. however i was not sure if he heard the 'youre way way cuter when you do..' maybe he did, maybe he didnt. but i'm just glad i got to have this last bus ride with him....

he was looking as cute as ever, as always, with his arms stretched out on that sofa we were sitting on. i wish i was encircled in them. but in a way it kind of scares me. but...his cuteness overwhelms me.at least... i'll somewhat try to get to know him better...thud thud thud...he doesnt know he doesnt know... i'm going to scare him away!!!
all the blessings and the best for exams!! study hard.

-skip a beat. my heart goes cold...

back from work

2006-05-31T23:33:00.000+08:00

o.m.g.
seeing your employers drunk is somewhat disturbing.
well i ended at like 1050... aunty thought it was just before 10 LOL.
she she was was. wasted.

just on another note as i sit here in my pjs, was studying last night and multitasking with watching the OC at the same time and OMG all those flashbacks to the first season where ryan had to stay in the model home that burnt down!! that like.. brought me back. and that song!! paint the silence is now in my head. its one of those songs that you can never get sick of... its so reminiscent....it put me in a mood.

i've decided the next time i get to talk to him i have to tell him how cute he is when he smiles... i cant believe he's never had a gf. or never liked anyone! its such a SCAM. he's lieing through his teeth. which also produce that gorgeous smile of his. sigh... i hope i'm doing the right thing!

-such a pretty young thing*

keep the bus rides coming

2006-05-31T17:04:00.000+08:00

yay! all the assessments are finished for the sem!! cep exams!! but i can chill til sunday =P
man yeah its taboo to talk about the pharm test!! if you do you get slapped . and after that its exponential slaps in both strength and frequency!! grrr...
TABOO
but yeah its all over!! i did good for my HSC oral!! 14/15 =P and i'm usually such a crappy speaker (speak too fast lor) but its all good!!!
i have work tonight but.
have to go soon =/
i get to go to UWA tmw though! yayyyumsss i havent seen spammers in ages!! and etc peeps =P
i've got a new email too! insurrm0unt4ble@gmail.com- add me

but yeah just a quick drop in note.

keep the bus rides coming.
-i'm glad its nearing the end of a semester. time really does flow by these days. tests and assgns are over and everything's coming into place. cep for exams. but during that time i realised .that i dont get to see him at all. to try talk to him. to see him smile [i could somewhat live off it]. so what am i going to do when i dont see him for a month?... i wonder... as the nights get colder the more i wish that i was warmer. that he could keep me warm. but the more i think about it the less likely it seems it will happen. we're complete two opposites. it seems like i'm not the type of girl he wants. if only.i just want him to be mine... i dont get to see him tomorrow. but on the last friday before i have to stop thinking about this and concentrate on exams i want to spend the day with him. i hope he wont find someone else in the long days ahead. and until the next time i see him on the bus. to sit next to him. to pretend to sleep on his shoulder. i'll be in hibernation. until his smile will wake me up like spring.

the leap of faith. does he? should i ask?

levitated.